DandelionMarie wrote:
Limited wrote:
Normally I’m not that open person, but I can feel deep inside myself that I need to talk with someone, because I’m having a mental breakdown, which I haven’t missed at all.
I don’t know why I am so open about this right now, but I have a feeling that I need to throw it out to get better with myself.
I’m scared. I’m scared everyday. I have a father I lost when I was around 10, he came back to life. But now he is sick. Like really sick. And all this is heartbreaking for me. I can’t talk to my contact person bc of this lovely miss rona.
I almost lost him last year and almost 2 weeks ago. And last weekend his eyes turned white in front of me and my boyfriend. Did I mention that I’m scared of losing him?
so wonderful people, will you please talk to me. I need to come on some other thought before I really get a hard mental breakdown again as I got two weeks ago, when I got a phone call from my sister saying that my father are getting picked of an ambulance and I heard the sound of it right after.
Im so so sorry that this is your life situation and have been for a long time. I can only imagine how stressful, heartbreaking and hurtful this is 3 You know its okey to break down sometimes. Jamie from One tree hill said once on the show "Sometimes people have to cry out all their tears to make room for a heart full of smiles" Even tho that is kinda naiv its a qoute filled with lots of love. While breaking down you may feel like it´s dangerous because you can feel the hurt physical in your heart, but I think what is more dangerous is not letting it out <3 You are allowed to feel, to be, that's why you are here - to be, to live! Tho I know that my words may not help I hope at least you feel seen, understood and less alone, because you are not alone and that's something you will experience with being open. I understand being open is hard, I struggle more than most people know with that myself and I know it can feel FUCKING lonely, but you are not alone!! The reality of life is hard and you have really felt that and for that I am sorry! A very wise woman I once knew said "There is alot of warmth and love in a big coup of tea. Take your hands around it and feel the warmth". I wanted to also say that I am genuinely extremely proud of you for opening up, that's SO brave - know that
If you want to just vent to another human being, pm me, I want to listen and be there!!