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Bloodflowers wrote:
back then there was always something happening. u never knew what was going to happen, where I was going to be or what I was doing and i was so emotional but i miss that bc now nothing really touches me at worst im just annoyed. and my life was unpredictable never knew what i was going to be doing tomorrow, where i was going to be, who i was sleeping with or if i was going minus on my bank account. i mean u never knew if i was even in the country bc i was very yolo indeed and everyone just wanted to tie me up on a chair and keep me there and i had so many big big dreams but those are just gone i used to be so vibrant and feeling everything
now I'm just boring, not funny and im walking a straight line towards apartments loans and a salary. nothing else, i don't party anymore, i don't drink, i don't do any drugs not even cannabis, i don't meet any new people and i even wake up at 8am at least sometimes. i don't get tattoos, i very rarely go to out or to concerts bc im here like i need to save up for my apartment and im going to live in x city and commute and im looking into loans and commuting tickets and researching. might as well kill myself not because im depressed but simply because im now just too plain i havent used tumblr in months either not that posting 2 pics a month counts anyway but i dont fit my role i have here i feel like
im just a spiders net in a movie where there is an anbandoned house
back then there was always something happening. u never knew what was going to happen, where I was going to be or what I was doing and i was so emotional but i miss that bc now nothing really touches me at worst im just annoyed. and my life was unpredictable never knew what i was going to be doing tomorrow, where i was going to be, who i was sleeping with or if i was going minus on my bank account. i mean u never knew if i was even in the country bc i was very yolo indeed and everyone just wanted to tie me up on a chair and keep me there and i had so many big big dreams but those are just gone i used to be so vibrant and feeling everything
now I'm just boring, not funny and im walking a straight line towards apartments loans and a salary. nothing else, i don't party anymore, i don't drink, i don't do any drugs not even cannabis, i don't meet any new people and i even wake up at 8am at least sometimes. i don't get tattoos, i very rarely go to out or to concerts bc im here like i need to save up for my apartment and im going to live in x city and commute and im looking into loans and commuting tickets and researching. might as well kill myself not because im depressed but simply because im now just too plain i havent used tumblr in months either not that posting 2 pics a month counts anyway but i dont fit my role i have here i feel like
im just a spiders net in a movie where there is an anbandoned house
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