LiaLa wrote:
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A Lifeless Beauty
I heard the melody everyday and every night when the girl wanted to sleep. She twisted and turned me until I made a peep of harmony. And I never got to see myself be free, but I honestly shouldn't be saying such things. I was never accepted into the life those poor souls gave me. In fact this isn't a life, this is just but me being still and looking like a pretty lifeless thing. My tutu was made of glass, just like all of me. My face was pure beauty to them all. With light pink eyeshadow, glimmery fake red gloss. They thought I had it all just as a stealth doll. I want to be free from the clutches of that girl. Looking down at me as I twirl. I'm not lifeless just motionless, I'm not dead yet just silently alive. I want to scream, I want to be a real girl but I am not and will never be. I just need this to be my own time and I want to dance, but not like this. I was created to be a role model. Perfect and as shiny as can be, twirling my unmovable self to the box's beat. The sweet chirps swirling around my ears and feet. I can hear them, doubting I'll be free. I was trapped for so long and never been able to move or talk or walk or dislocate my feet and arms from this wretched sore position. I'm just a beautiful toy to bee turned and looked at with joy. I am craving something more, my lust for freedom growing, shining my glamour. I say I've had enough. I have a mind too, maybe not a soul. I have speech to be broken out. I have a dance of emotions but they will never stream free. I'm slowly creeping towards my fate as my sanity is lost. How I want to end this girl's life so mine won't be tainted. Oh she's turning me and oh how I plot to hold a knife for the first time in my not so lively life. Oh how she must be so relaxed while I have everyday to worry. Trapped in this music box I am, waiting for myself to crack and split, letting myself go. I'm falling down to the darkness. Then one day when the little girl is sleeping, I don't have to twirl. My face buried in the bracelets colored a shiny blue. Soon I'll get to look at you.
When she breathes ever so lightly, I'll transform until I'm not likely to be loved anymore. I'll have her dreams be tainted. My beauty and sanity wash away as I lay there to decay. When she wakes she won't like what she's able to see. I'll be there waiting sweetie, for imprisoning me. Through the cracks of the top, the sunlight shines through. Wondering what she will wear, she knows I'll be there too. The little girl opens me up, ready to rummage through the necklaces and beads and bracelets and such.
But when my cradle home is open, she dislikes what she finds. Staring at me with horror, seeing that I had a mind. Now it's lost because of this place. Now it's lost for all days. I want to just wait for her to decay with me. I look broken like I was inside, and my face is oozing an oily black red. Crackles on my once rosy cheeks, my eyes staring up at her. Pupils small, shaded with an insane red hue. From my chest drying black, and legs broken off. Her jewelry covered with blood, the mirror of the box stained with black cracks and red ooze, she looks closely as its broken. It only shows the back of my head, which has a lost mind inside of it. I find the strength to move, finally feeling "happy." Emotions have come back, as the source twists and lets out a demented melody.
The sweet chirps of sound have cracked, the song played roughly. It didn't feel right, as I was feeling happy. The girl closes the box, the music ongoing. She's being led to my insanity and sad feelings. Finally feeling the same, trapped in the tune of my beautiful melodic harmony. Collapsing on her floor, letting out loose feelings. Thinking of her death, seeing nothing but darkness. She is scared now, not able to feel real feelings. My job is done, as she peeks at her desk. The square music box opens, revealing my spooky stare. I look at her with joy and pain, finally able to move my arm. Reaching out for a soul, for her to let through my word. She rushes to the kitchen, where mama has the knives stored. Getting them out of their holder, she's regretting what I adored. Sacrificing her young youth, big life and near future, the girl stabs her neck, me looking at the mirror. She has committed suicide, leaving her soul free to wander. I know this is my chance, my chance to really smile. When she falls on the ground, hitting the had marvel floor, her hand reaches another tile. I am just happy I will be freed soon.
The girl has died, but not completely. Her sad soul has switched with mine, and converted to a new vessel. I hear the click of the source, spinning it around. I watch the girl twirl, living a perfect life. She has nothing to worry about but her sanity. I feel like it's in fact fine, as I close the box and lift her up. Using my new young human body, before, I stretched my muscles. I'll be using this vessel quite often, being able to live my life properly. She doesn't have to suffer the way I did for ages. I took her outside, just when the garbage truck was to arrive. It was at the first home, clutching and crushing trash in its clutch. I looked down at the music box, opening it up, hearing the clicking and chirping sounds melodic once again. Before I said goodbye, the girl had her ability to move and look at me, her popped up, blue eyes batted with pink eyeshadow, looking up at me. She couldn't plead, so I didn't listen to her gaze. I opened up a trash bag, placing the box inside. She knew what was coming, and all I could do was smile. The garbage truck disposed of that mess. Mine to be specific, which was now cleared... She was crushed by the clutch of the green vehicle. I waved to her my final goodbye though she was already gone, flipping my newly founded brown hair with gold-like streaks.
Now I was pleased. Now I was free. Now I had no worries. None of my concern. Now the girl's mama was mine. Now the girl's life was mine.