Chat0yant wrote:(really, y'all don't gotta read this just nice to put it in words another way)
when i was getting through bleach (anime) last time, there was this moment in the show where i had to stop it and cry because orihime's line hit so hard. I was like "I just wanted to veg out to bleach and here we are crying and having an existential crisis" when she said
"lonliness isn't nearly as bad as being in the way" b/e that is the underlying basis entirely for how I am socially. online and off. What's the point in talking if all I do is get in people's way and inconvenience or annoy them. Nicest thing to do is shut up and walk away.
That's why
don't mean to rant about self pity just felt like answering the question honestly for once so sorry
tl,dr : I hate myself too much to deal w/ social interaction w/ other people, I can't even deal w/ myself
prolly some fear, shyness,, never-ending self doubt/regret (ok that one might not have been said), etc. too so relatable to what others have said
good times, have a wonderful evening y'all
sorry to hear