Klavier wrote:hmm wrote:
@Klavier pwease let me know how it goes.Â
@hmm aj lav ju ur so kind
it went well. better than i expected tbh probably because i specifically told him like  i cant talk yet so take a few days to really think about what u wanna say
he started off by apologizing so that was a good sign i guess but i immediately asked For what? because apologizing is easy but knowing WHY you're apologizing is a whole different thing! but he said he was sorry for not communicating better. he said that he did feel weird and hurt after we broke up and that he knows he should've just told me about that instead of pretending like everything was fine... especially since i literally ASKED if he rlly was ok or if he needed more time and/or space. he said he felt rlly horrible about it and apologized many times
it was a rlly good talk i think.. i felt like i could be very honest and it didn't feel weird or uncomfortable or whatevwr. i only cried a lil bit! and i didnt go into the absolute full extent of how badly ive been treating myself after this whole situation but i think he still got the picture. i didnt hold back i just kept some details out because i just didnt wanna talk about it ig brjdxjjdnf it was a lot of shit all at once so yk i was like lets chill out just a lil bit.....
in the end i was able to joke around and stuff bc i felt like we had managed to talk it out. i never wanted to be mad at him or anything and it was relieving to hear that he seems to fully understand and regret what he did wrong. i dont think im gonna 100% forgive him yet but i at least feel a lot better now that i know for sure what hes feeling and that he knows it was his fault!! i'm just happy to know im gonna be able to go into next year feeling ok about it, and like im able to be his friend again (even tho he doesnt know tjat bc i told him i probably wont be back next year plz.)
now the question is did i feel this ok and comfortable going into it because i took a shot right before? possibly but i wont say it to avoid feeding in2 my impending alcoholism /j /hj
 emelarrrrr.....
but im glad that he was able to recognize what did wrong and that he apologized to u for it... now u dont have to be hard on urself anymore that's great! honestly if it were me id be so hurt i wouldnt even think of being friends w him despite forgiving him, so i respect u for it fr fr... i hope he doesn't fuck around again yes...