fujiwara wrote:octocat wrote:
will it make u happier afterwards to go even if it's a pain now?
no i have been feeling guilty abt going there because last time i went i just napped. bcus i was getting sleep deprived and having minor hallucinations bcus ov stress from my living situation. and we didnt do anything he just gamed and i zzzzzz. and he probably doesnt mind it but he also probably wants 2 watch movies and tv shows and i just want 2 nap if stress or play wuwa / draw if feeling ok .. i want 2 be a good gf bcus my parents always say hes a poor guy for having 2 deal with me and he spoils me and i dont do anything for him.... and idk i always have that on my mind when we are together and it makes me stress even more im sorry octocat n klavier and everyone else
well if he loves u (which i assume he does bc duh) then ur allowed to be a wreck by urself or when u hang out. ik the feeling of feeling like a shitty gf bc of ur mental health and shit