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Hmm
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hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:
Hmmmmmmmmmm

this does not affect my morals or values don't worry i've been visting it since i was 9 years old and i'm still not bigoted i would Hope

This explains so much /j

no i get u it absolutely does but to be honest my childhood was like 4chan in real life anyway help. it would've ended up like this either way

Dwaal
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Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:
i've been thinking about this for the past few months but i have the willpower of wet cardboard x

I get this....

Any small plans that are somewhat achievable? something you want to start with ?

i already achieved one thing, but the rest seems impossible because of how i live my life on a daily basis x

mhm thats why small changes matter.. its to change the overall way of life

So what is it that you ultimately want?

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devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:
when have you been able to turn your life around? maybe not in a huge way but just.. what decisions have you made that changed things for the better?

why are you pondering this on a lovely wednesday evening?

i've been thinking about this for the past few months but i have the willpower of wet cardboard x

None of my life changing moments have been intentional turning points tbh so maybe it shouldn’t be approached as a willpower thing

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devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:
this does not affect my morals or values don't worry i've been visting it since i was 9 years old and i'm still not bigoted i would Hope

This explains so much /j

no i get u it absolutely does but to be honest my childhood was like 4chan in real life anyway help. it would've ended up like this either way

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Hmm
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hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:
I get this....

Any small plans that are somewhat achievable? something you want to start with ?

i already achieved one thing, but the rest seems impossible because of how i live my life on a daily basis x

mhm thats why small changes matter.. its to change the overall way of life

So what is it that you ultimately want?

i feel like i don't exactly know what i want, i keep trying to reflect on what i did a few years ago when i was able to turn my life around for the first time and actually do well for myself.. but i feel like it had weird unsustainable motivations... i felt like i was proving a point to someone rather than doing any of it for myself.

it's very difficult to find that kind of motivation now as i don't feel the need to prove myself to anyone i guess? but at the same time i don't compute the concept of.. doing good for myself. and there's no time for me to figure out my self-esteem before things start falling apart, but time related urgency isn't motivation for me either

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:
why are you pondering this on a lovely wednesday evening?

i've been thinking about this for the past few months but i have the willpower of wet cardboard x

None of my life changing moments have been intentional turning points tbh so maybe it shouldn’t be approached as a willpower thing

intentional... can you name a specific one that was like... you have no choice now

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devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:
i've been thinking about this for the past few months but i have the willpower of wet cardboard x

None of my life changing moments have been intentional turning points tbh so maybe it shouldn’t be approached as a willpower thing

intentional... can you name a specific one that was like... you have no choice now

Wym no choice like it’s out of my hands or mental like I must make a decision here

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:
None of my life changing moments have been intentional turning points tbh so maybe it shouldn’t be approached as a willpower thing

intentional... can you name a specific one that was like... you have no choice now

Wym no choice like it’s out of my hands or mental like I must make a decision here

both i suppose

Dwaal
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Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:
i already achieved one thing, but the rest seems impossible because of how i live my life on a daily basis x

mhm thats why small changes matter.. its to change the overall way of life

So what is it that you ultimately want?

i feel like i don't exactly know what i want, i keep trying to reflect on what i did a few years ago when i was able to turn my life around for the first time and actually do well for myself.. but i feel like it had weird unsustainable motivations... i felt like i was proving a point to someone rather than doing any of it for myself.

it's very difficult to find that kind of motivation now as i don't feel the need to prove myself to anyone i guess? but at the same time i don't compute the concept of.. doing good for myself. and there's no time for me to figure out my self-esteem before things start falling apart, but time related urgency isn't motivation for me either

yea makes sense... but by you thinking about it you must have some sort of idea of where you wanna "end up" even if you can't find the motivation for it ?

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devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:
intentional... can you name a specific one that was like... you have no choice now

Wym no choice like it’s out of my hands or mental like I must make a decision here

both i suppose

Moving out was one ig that I had no actually choice in cos my mom was gonna move in with her boyfriend

ig deciding to come out from my og list was more of a mental no choice thing but like it wasn’t intended as a life turning point it was just a consequence of having to do it

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:
mhm thats why small changes matter.. its to change the overall way of life

So what is it that you ultimately want?

i feel like i don't exactly know what i want, i keep trying to reflect on what i did a few years ago when i was able to turn my life around for the first time and actually do well for myself.. but i feel like it had weird unsustainable motivations... i felt like i was proving a point to someone rather than doing any of it for myself.

it's very difficult to find that kind of motivation now as i don't feel the need to prove myself to anyone i guess? but at the same time i don't compute the concept of.. doing good for myself. and there's no time for me to figure out my self-esteem before things start falling apart, but time related urgency isn't motivation for me either

yea makes sense... but by you thinking about it you must have some sort of idea of where you wanna "end up" even if you can't find the motivation for it ?

okay to be very candid right now all i want right now is to stop going online omg KJAHGHAJIHABJAHBSSNHBD like i genuinely am so hopelessly addicted to being on the internet but i feel so pathetically lost when i'm not there.

like i have no clue what life is like anymore and it's so bleak and stupid. i honestly feel anxious about it too like oh well now i have to figure things out again, and i suppose last time figuring things out was part of what made making scary changes somewhat fun for me, like eventually i'll have the tools for dealing with whatever life throws at me, but evidently i've lost that knowledge or rather it's gone unused for way too long.. no i really just want to log out omg. but i think i'm also scared of the social isolation aspect of it, but at the same time i want to learn to be by myself again, but also for some reason that scares me like i'm unable to handle that..?

also by offline i don't mean like... completely ditching the internet, i mean specifically navigating on any social medias/user based websites (except vp and discord i suppose) yes.... omg im so glad i never became the kind of person to join discord servers otherwise i'd be asking joob to migrate to whatsapp FUCKJFJFJFH

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whydoiexist wrote:
i can name u a lot of things ive done to make it worse

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

whydoiexist wrote:
i can name u a lot of things ive done to make it worse

okay but real talk i'd hear you out on that too :/

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:

hmm wrote:

devilcake wrote:
Wym no choice like it’s out of my hands or mental like I must make a decision here

both i suppose

Moving out was one ig that I had no actually choice in cos my mom was gonna move in with her boyfriend

ig deciding to come out from my og list was more of a mental no choice thing but like it wasn’t intended as a life turning point it was just a consequence of having to do it

a consequence of having to do it.... im Stupid im so Sorry i dont understand, consequence to what..... OHHH you mean transitioning? omg

Dwaal
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Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

hmm wrote:
i feel like i don't exactly know what i want, i keep trying to reflect on what i did a few years ago when i was able to turn my life around for the first time and actually do well for myself.. but i feel like it had weird unsustainable motivations... i felt like i was proving a point to someone rather than doing any of it for myself.

it's very difficult to find that kind of motivation now as i don't feel the need to prove myself to anyone i guess? but at the same time i don't compute the concept of.. doing good for myself. and there's no time for me to figure out my self-esteem before things start falling apart, but time related urgency isn't motivation for me either

yea makes sense... but by you thinking about it you must have some sort of idea of where you wanna "end up" even if you can't find the motivation for it ?

okay to be very candid right now all i want right now is to stop going online omg KJAHGHAJIHABJAHBSSNHBD like i genuinely am so hopelessly addicted to being on the internet but i feel so pathetically lost when i'm not there.

like i have no clue what life is like anymore and it's so bleak and stupid. i honestly feel anxious about it too like oh well now i have to figure things out again, and i suppose last time figuring things out was part of what made making scary changes somewhat fun for me, like eventually i'll have the tools for dealing with whatever life throws at me, but evidently i've lost that knowledge or rather it's gone unused for way too long.. no i really just want to log out omg. but i think i'm also scared of the social isolation aspect of it, but at the same time i want to learn to be by myself again, but also for some reason that scares me like i'm unable to handle that..?

also by offline i don't mean like... completely ditching the internet, i mean specifically navigating on any social medias/user based websites (except vp and discord i suppose) yes.... omg im so glad i never became the kind of person to join discord servers otherwise i'd be asking joob to migrate to whatsapp FUCKJFJFJFH

hmhmhmmm this seems rough? Maybe start with small brakes doing something like taking a walk or something? Maybe that'll make it feel less troublesome rather than just sitting at home???? Idk

Idk how to take a break from online... I'm cronically online? I mean I don't really do much other than watch the news, study and vp so yea I'm no fun....