Heartbroken wrote:Heartbroken wrote:
i have a tendency to, when i get rly angry or overwhelmed, i will completely shut down. i will hear you talking and understand the wordsbut it will go in one ear out the other, i will not look at you, i will be very unlikely to even respond short of "mhm" and i think doing that in a group would be fucking embarrassing.
it's already embarrassing enough that it's happened enough in front of my boss for him to call it my "Shutdown mode"Â (im not upset he calls it that, its kinda funny, just embarrassing that it happens so uch its got a name)
and like after, bc of this, i will not remember most things said to me once we r out of the situation which is so awkwardddd
i think the one thing that is good about group stuff is that even if people dont experience the exact same kinda shut down mode thing u do they still have experience with the whole doing x "irrational" thing and feeling embarassed about it so usually ppl are pretty chill wiuth it i feel like, at least all the mentally ill autist in good trans lead activity group i went to was very fine with me just sitting non verbally the whole time i was there evrei week