fujiwara wrote:
basically i got out of work late despite trying my absolute best to be on out time - bcus ive been told by 2 higher ranks that my timing was slipping and i need to be faster at work. i was meant to leave at 6:15 and i was ready by about 6:25, but i didnt get to leave work til 6:55pm...... and even then my coworker was still there.
it makes me so mad how she just cant hurry up for us to leave and always does little tasks that could wait until morning........ shes been spoken to by several ppl about being slow too, except she has always been slow, whereas my "slow" was me going through rough times at home and bad mental healths.
then today when i got home, being in the worst mood from being with worst coworker + my bra being super uncomfortable.... my sister was here with the kids and (not blaming them entirely bcus they dont know better) they completely messed up my room. i already have no privacy from my parents and the fact that my sister couldnt come pull her kids out of my room or just check that they arent ruining my stuff. my desk was soaked, including my keyboard and tablet. my whole plushie collection was everywhere, all the stuff from my figure shelves was taken off (except top 2 shelves where they cant reach) and rubbish just everywhere...
i spent hours upon hours last week cleaning my room to perfection and raising my mental health to match my surroundings and this just tipped everything back down again. no matter what i do, everything around me goes wrong. i really cant wait to leave home and have my own space.
rlly wanted to be happy and excited for first valentines tomorrow too, but now im kinda "idc" attitude. : / dont even wanna stay at mr. lords bcus ill be thinking of my fuckin mess of a room the whole time and wishing i could take a long comfortable shower and just cry