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In 7 minutes i can go change

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xNow that I’m outside I can tell the jeans are a bit more on the warm/greeny side of denim which doesn’t match exactly but not to the point of being like oh that’s two entirely different shades of denim

I thinn it looks sick!!

Thank you! I agree it’s just that I wanted a pair of greyish blue jeans but my light denim jeans are too small now so i could just use these in place of light denim jeans
hard to decide

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Matteo i sent an instagram post on discord earlier today that i feel is very you, you should go look at it

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devilcake wrote:

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xNow that I’m outside I can tell the jeans are a bit more on the warm/greeny side of denim which doesn’t match exactly but not to the point of being like oh that’s two entirely different shades of denim

I thinn it looks sick!!

Thank you! I agree it’s just that I wanted a pair of greyish blue jeans but my light denim jeans are too small now so i could just use these in place of light denim jeans
hard to decide

Mmm i see i see i see. I think no mstter ehat you choose it will be good

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Heartbroken wrote:
Matteo i sent an instagram post on discord earlier today that i feel is very you, you should go look at it

Aye aye

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What happened? If you wanna talk abt it! I can’t promise im as good at helping as u r, but i’ll listen

That's fine
I just had a terrible morning and then at lunch I had to go home bc I couldn't stop crying

A lot of things going on right now

I feel ya, i’m sorry you’re having a rough time ): i hope it becomes easier for you soon, you deserve to be happy

Thanks. Now I'm gonna tell u about it.

So okay yesterday ducked and last week was rough. Just too much at work I felt so exhausted. And on Saturday I went to clean out my bunny's house after he died. (I miss him so much). And I cried a lot doing it. And then I had to deal w my sister crying too bc... God's it's so exhausting having to carry ur own grief and hers. Bc that's a problem of mine.
And yesterday my thoughts spiraled bad so I ofc had a panic attack before I fell asleep. And this morning we didn't have any food or lunch and I felt terrible. So dizzy and stomach bad at work. So at lunch I just broke out crying over all of it, and got mom to pick me up. And she told me I have to stop being a perfect worker and overwork myself. And I told her this is what I'm trained to do. She said, you have to be more egosentric. If you do you'll be a Normal person. I told her I don't know how to do that. I'm scared of people and being yelled at. I don't know the word break, or mistakes. And yesterfah my mom told me that my sister was devastated over our bunny still and that just devastated me + I felt like I had to fix it. She baked cookies to help it and now I felt like I had to help her help my sister. And I never get hugs. Today was the first hug I got from mom since the day bunny died. But sis gets hugs all the time. I NEED HUGS TOO. I feel like sis and dad hates me if I'm egosentric. Actually dad once told me I was bc I took too much cinnamon. Yes so things just WAVE CRASH Boom today

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devilcake wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:

devilcake wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:

I thinn it looks sick!!

Thank you! I agree it’s just that I wanted a pair of greyish blue jeans but my light denim jeans are too small now so i could just use these in place of light denim jeans
hard to decide

Mmm i see i see i see. I think no mstter ehat you choose it will be good

I think I’ll keep them like this for a bit since it’s denim jacket season anyways
the only issue is I want to do some embroidery on them n idk I feel like the different colours would suit different embroidery better

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Oakwald wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:

Oakwald wrote:
That's fine
I just had a terrible morning and then at lunch I had to go home bc I couldn't stop crying

A lot of things going on right now

I feel ya, i’m sorry you’re having a rough time ): i hope it becomes easier for you soon, you deserve to be happy

Thanks. Now I'm gonna tell u about it.

So okay yesterday ducked and last week was rough. Just too much at work I felt so exhausted. And on Saturday I went to clean out my bunny's house after he died. (I miss him so much). And I cried a lot doing it. And then I had to deal w my sister crying too bc... God's it's so exhausting having to carry ur own grief and hers. Bc that's a problem of mine.
And yesterday my thoughts spiraled bad so I ofc had a panic attack before I fell asleep. And this morning we didn't have any food or lunch and I felt terrible. So dizzy and stomach bad at work. So at lunch I just broke out crying over all of it, and got mom to pick me up. And she told me I have to stop being a perfect worker and overwork myself. And I told her this is what I'm trained to do. She said, you have to be more egosentric. If you do you'll be a Normal person. I told her I don't know how to do that. I'm scared of people and being yelled at. I don't know the word break, or mistakes. And yesterfah my mom told me that my sister was devastated over our bunny still and that just devastated me + I felt like I had to fix it. She baked cookies to help it and now I felt like I had to help her help my sister. And I never get hugs. Today was the first hug I got from mom since the day bunny died. But sis gets hugs all the time. I NEED HUGS TOO. I feel like sis and dad hates me if I'm egosentric. Actually dad once told me I was bc I took too much cinnamon. Yes so things just WAVE CRASH Boom today

Yeah okay this sounds like way too much at the same time, it’s understsndable that it all became too much for you in the moment!!!! Have you tried telling your mom hat you’d like more hugs? Maybe you could try initiating some??

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devilcake wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:

devilcake wrote:
Thank you! I agree it’s just that I wanted a pair of greyish blue jeans but my light denim jeans are too small now so i could just use these in place of light denim jeans
hard to decide

Mmm i see i see i see. I think no mstter ehat you choose it will be good

I think I’ll keep them like this for a bit since it’s denim jacket season anyways
the only issue is I want to do some embroidery on them n idk I feel like the different colours would suit different embroidery better

Ooooooo sounds like it will be rly cool!!

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Oakwald wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:
I feel ya, i’m sorry you’re having a rough time ): i hope it becomes easier for you soon, you deserve to be happy

Thanks. Now I'm gonna tell u about it.

So okay yesterday ducked and last week was rough. Just too much at work I felt so exhausted. And on Saturday I went to clean out my bunny's house after he died. (I miss him so much). And I cried a lot doing it. And then I had to deal w my sister crying too bc... God's it's so exhausting having to carry ur own grief and hers. Bc that's a problem of mine.
And yesterday my thoughts spiraled bad so I ofc had a panic attack before I fell asleep. And this morning we didn't have any food or lunch and I felt terrible. So dizzy and stomach bad at work. So at lunch I just broke out crying over all of it, and got mom to pick me up. And she told me I have to stop being a perfect worker and overwork myself. And I told her this is what I'm trained to do. She said, you have to be more egosentric. If you do you'll be a Normal person. I told her I don't know how to do that. I'm scared of people and being yelled at. I don't know the word break, or mistakes. And yesterfah my mom told me that my sister was devastated over our bunny still and that just devastated me + I felt like I had to fix it. She baked cookies to help it and now I felt like I had to help her help my sister. And I never get hugs. Today was the first hug I got from mom since the day bunny died. But sis gets hugs all the time. I NEED HUGS TOO. I feel like sis and dad hates me if I'm egosentric. Actually dad once told me I was bc I took too much cinnamon. Yes so things just WAVE CRASH Boom today

Yeah okay this sounds like way too much at the same time, it’s understsndable that it all became too much for you in the moment!!!! Have you tried telling your mom hat you’d like more hugs? Maybe you could try initiating some??

Yes I'm gonna be better asking for them
I kinda didn't realize u could do that until a few years ago likw
ASK for hugs??? Sorcery. Not in this family.

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I'm gonna try nap a bit now
I need to update the grocery store list so pls drop what I should put on it

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Heartbroken wrote:

Oakwald wrote:

Heartbroken wrote:

Oakwald wrote:
Thanks. Now I'm gonna tell u about it.

So okay yesterday ducked and last week was rough. Just too much at work I felt so exhausted. And on Saturday I went to clean out my bunny's house after he died. (I miss him so much). And I cried a lot doing it. And then I had to deal w my sister crying too bc... God's it's so exhausting having to carry ur own grief and hers. Bc that's a problem of mine.
And yesterday my thoughts spiraled bad so I ofc had a panic attack before I fell asleep. And this morning we didn't have any food or lunch and I felt terrible. So dizzy and stomach bad at work. So at lunch I just broke out crying over all of it, and got mom to pick me up. And she told me I have to stop being a perfect worker and overwork myself. And I told her this is what I'm trained to do. She said, you have to be more egosentric. If you do you'll be a Normal person. I told her I don't know how to do that. I'm scared of people and being yelled at. I don't know the word break, or mistakes. And yesterfah my mom told me that my sister was devastated over our bunny still and that just devastated me + I felt like I had to fix it. She baked cookies to help it and now I felt like I had to help her help my sister. And I never get hugs. Today was the first hug I got from mom since the day bunny died. But sis gets hugs all the time. I NEED HUGS TOO. I feel like sis and dad hates me if I'm egosentric. Actually dad once told me I was bc I took too much cinnamon. Yes so things just WAVE CRASH Boom today

Yeah okay this sounds like way too much at the same time, it’s understsndable that it all became too much for you in the moment!!!! Have you tried telling your mom hat you’d like more hugs? Maybe you could try initiating some??

Yes I'm gonna be better asking for them
I kinda didn't realize u could do that until a few years ago likw
ASK for hugs??? Sorcery. Not in this family.

): i wish upon you many future hugs and im sending you hugs too!!

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IM FREEEEEE

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Oakwald wrote:
I'm gonna try nap a bit now
I need to update the grocery store list so pls drop what I should put on it

.. halloween candy

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Oakwald wrote:
I'm gonna try nap a bit now
I need to update the grocery store list so pls drop what I should put on it

.. halloween candy

I don't halloween