Rouya wrote:
- hope its ok im adding to this thread, i need to vent
im so tired of having aspergers because ive functioned well enough my entire life, but the older i get, the worse everything gets, because the higher expectations people have of me and just... i cant live up to them anymore, and it frustrates me so much because ive been used to being "normal" my entire life, then things got really tough and i didnt understand why, then i got diagnosed 2 years ago and now im dealing with adult stuff + figuring out myself as a person with aspergers and what that means and just.
like i have a job at a library where i work 4 hours a day and have wednesdays off, but even THAT exhausts me and i just. can i just function normally, have a normal job, live a normal life and not be EXHAUSTED all the time please
and because i am exhausted all the time, it also makes me feel sad bc apparently lack of energy > not doing the stuff i need to do > anxiety over not doing the stuff i need to do > even more lack of energy from being anxious > in the end results in me having a nervous breakdown and being very sad
ive recently had a really good period where i was feeling ok and im just bummed out because i thought i was getting better and now im having a bad period again : (