toraix wrote:
Hello my name is oscar and i love girls i would even date a girl, marry a girl. BUT IM IN LOVE WITH A MAN RIGHT NOW. bonk bonk big brain
So i still like my ex even tho i broke up with him like 4 months ago very silently and didnt really explain other than that idk i have mentall illness and bdp probably so lets not make your life a living hell because of me and he was so heartbroken that i was like okay now i can just be myself and heal. BUT NO. My dumb little nut brain decided to like him even more when he called me crying multiple times and i just denied being in love with him until now when i saw him the first time in months and i just wanted him to hold me and take my hand BUT he just sat across the room with a mask on and we just talked and he made me laugh and so happy and i realized why i have been so unhappy these past months i broke up with him i-
and i told him and he was like he has tried to get over me and it make me so emotional hear that even when he thinked about it it made him gag
I want him back so badly because i was so happy with him but also i dont want to ruin him and he is obviously skeptical about me since i didnt really explain anything when i broke it off because i didnt even know why okay i just wanted space and i had a bad moodswing but like I am so in love with him right now and i want him back
idk man im a mess
So i still like my ex even tho i broke up with him like 4 months ago very silently and didnt really explain other than that idk i have mentall illness and bdp probably so lets not make your life a living hell because of me and he was so heartbroken that i was like okay now i can just be myself and heal. BUT NO. My dumb little nut brain decided to like him even more when he called me crying multiple times and i just denied being in love with him until now when i saw him the first time in months and i just wanted him to hold me and take my hand BUT he just sat across the room with a mask on and we just talked and he made me laugh and so happy and i realized why i have been so unhappy these past months i broke up with him i-
and i told him and he was like he has tried to get over me and it make me so emotional hear that even when he thinked about it it made him gag
I want him back so badly because i was so happy with him but also i dont want to ruin him and he is obviously skeptical about me since i didnt really explain anything when i broke it off because i didnt even know why okay i just wanted space and i had a bad moodswing but like I am so in love with him right now and i want him back
idk man im a mess