Epoch wrote:
She had to be careful about this one, she did. Any word she said could either set him off or even herself, if she tried hard enough. The medication helped to control it, but overall she was still the rock of her emotions, the giant power source for her own behavior. In a way, she was trapped. She was trapped in the body of her own personal hurricane, emotions always whipping around and around her at all times. Sometimes, when she was sitting by herself and left to rot in the sorrows of her own pathetic mind, she wondered how heavenly it must be to be trapped inside of a sociopathic mindset, instead. Indifference would overtake anything else she tried to feel. She wouldn't give a damn if her parents had dangled her off a bridge, she wouldn't care if she'd gotten the scars, because the pain would have transformed into adrenaline. But no, here she was, talking to a man who she'd been warned against even breathing in the same room as who was having his own pit of misery and self consciousness finally catch up with him, and she was about to boil over, as well. But no, she refused to let it happen, refused to really show emotion at all as she dabbed at the cuts for remaining flecks of glass with the antiseptic. "You're falling down a void, one that's not very fun to get out of." she commented, in response to his earlier comments. "You feel like it's all your fault because you had no control over the situation, whether you realize that fact or not. Don't blame yourself for something you really couldn't control, because no matter how much you might want to believe it, you couldn't read her mind. You don't know what she was thinking or what went through her head. She could have..." She cut herself off there, sure he knew what she was about to say but not wanting him to suddenly get angry again. So instead, she switched the topic to the question she had brought up, and he had responded to. She still had to be careful about what she said, as she wasn't open whatsoever. She was quite the opposite, a closed book, and she never really answered things the way people would expect her to. "I asked for the sake of asking, rather than to answer." she said, more as a joke to throw him off track, which is exactly what happened. She watched him as he became distracted with her words, briefly taken away from his own issues as he had to focus on this recent situation. "Just kidding. Sort of. Anyway, I don't think I've ever really truly been happy, for a variety of reasons. If I have, then I don't remember it. But recently...remember Daniel? The one Emma was so set on keeping me away from, even more than you?" She laughed a little and he rolled his eyes, but still smiled a little. He nodded and she continued. "I know you sort of helped, but I don't think you ever knew why he was even put away in the first place, or why I kept him around. He was nothing but disrespectful when he came over. Really disheartening to think I would stoop to such a low." she muttered, then snapped out of it. "He, um, he raped me. More than once, and I just couldn't bring myself to leave him or tell anybody about it until a few months ago..." she said, and she instantly both felt regretful and relieved. She was relieved of one more burden, one less thing to carry on her own two shoulders and letting it go. But the regret came from the unnerving silence that followed. He just looked so shocked, and then he looked absolutely disgusted, and she couldn't tell whether it was at her or not. Obviously she hoped it wasn't, prayed he wasn't looking at her that way, but she could see why he would. Why would she subject herself to such treatment and just not tell anybody about it? If anything, she was bringing it upon herself if she wouldn't do anything about it. She but her lip, refusing to let her guard down more than she already had and rebuilding the wall she'd let some light shed through. She tightened the bandages once more, avoiding his eyes, and she could feel them boring into her, incredulous. "Sorry. I just...yeah." she finished, aware of how pathetic she sounded. Instead of digging herself deeper into humiliation, she straightened herself out, and Owen did the same. The bathroom wasn't exactly spacious, so she was sort of pressed against the wall with him extremely close. It didn't help that he had reached out to touch her arm or something, so the closeness felt even worse than it looked. She felt like she was shrinking against the wall, like a little kid as she stared up at him into his big eyes, which looked far more concerned than she was used to.
Amusement flickered in his pale eyes as Gemma suddenly became very angry. He could see right through what she was doing, however. He could tell before it even happened that she would react this way, and little did she know that she was giving him exactly what he wanted. He liked her attitude more than he should have, though. It turned him on just enough, got his senses a bit more acute to her body language. "I'm not the one who has the problem here, Gemma. In fact, I think right at this moment you're the one with so many issues. I'm not trying to seduce you whatsoever. I'm just being as much of a bitch as you just were." He smirked as she continued talking, rolled his eyes a bit at her final comment. "You don't really know why I even have my little 'act', though, do you?" he asked her, and she sort of stopped to look at him. "You act like I'm the worst man on the face of the earth, and then you tell me that I'm not repulsive and nice to look at?" he asked, amused, changing the subject abruptly. His eyes glinted once more and a small shots of a smile flashed before he reached out again, her hips soft in his hands as he pulled her close. He then spun her around and had her up against the wall, his hands pressed to the drywall around her. He looked her in the eyes, his breath warm and sweet, and he grinned humorlessly. "I know for damn sure that I'm bothering you. No matter how badly you want to sit here and act like I'm not, like I'm the reason this is happening whatsoever, you know that none of its true." His eyes closed for a second and his lips were quite close to hers, close enough that he could feel her tense up and hold her breath. "I find you nice to look at, too, you know. I always have." His eyes opened and watched her for a reaction, and one hand reached down to trace the outline of her cheeks with a finger tip. "I always want them gone." he muttered, then pulled away, fully satisfied with himself. He could see the blush rise in her cheeks, and he'd be lying if he said he didn't enjoy it. Of course, this was all just to joke around, in his own twisted mind, but he couldn't ignore the fact that he actually enjoyed the closeness. He actually really did find her very alluring, in more ways than one, and that he liked it when she was trying so hard to help herself. But he brushed away these thoughts as he turned and surveyed the room, never having really been in here much. "It's something my sister said to you, isn't it?" he asked her, still scanning the room.