cult wrote:
Im back but only to get advice
so backstory, this fall and summer was an absolute hell to me. 3 of my 4 siblings either attempted or wanted to kill themselves. My older sister was the worst and attempted all the time, at my apartment while i wasn't able to look after her, at her apartment and a few times by the trains. At the same time my mom became an alcoholic and let me know i have full responsibility of my sister since she was tired of her
at this time 2 of my siblings got into a really bad situation with the law and both got criminal offences. They've never been close to it before so it was a crazy time. My brother tried to commit.
the main reason for my sister was that her bf broke up with her (he got schizofrenic and thought she was a witch) this really fucked with her. her bf had made her take out a loan for $40k which he was supposed to pay back within 2 months. It's been 2 years now and that also fucked with her.
when she tried to commit she moved in with me and my boyfriend. Me having to balance working full time (at a TOXIC job) studying my last year at uni, looking after my brothers and making sure my sister didn't commit while I was away was the worst thing.
i ended up having to be on sick leave by doctors demand, get on depresso pills and some more.
since then I have switched city and job, my siblings have moved to a different country WITH her schizofrenic bf. Though I'm still not restored and am taking medication it's been ok.
well now 2 of my siblings have moved back home. My sister is depressed and wanting to commit again. she's moving back home on friday without her bf. She has nowhere to live and will most likely live with me and my boyfriend.
I'm completely stressed out I hate making it about me when my sister is so bad but I don't know how i can handle this responsibility once again I feel so helpless and so so tired of my life I can't do this again
So sorry for the long text im so stressed out
Im back but only to get advice
so backstory, this fall and summer was an absolute hell to me. 3 of my 4 siblings either attempted or wanted to kill themselves. My older sister was the worst and attempted all the time, at my apartment while i wasn't able to look after her, at her apartment and a few times by the trains. At the same time my mom became an alcoholic and let me know i have full responsibility of my sister since she was tired of her
at this time 2 of my siblings got into a really bad situation with the law and both got criminal offences. They've never been close to it before so it was a crazy time. My brother tried to commit.
the main reason for my sister was that her bf broke up with her (he got schizofrenic and thought she was a witch) this really fucked with her. her bf had made her take out a loan for $40k which he was supposed to pay back within 2 months. It's been 2 years now and that also fucked with her.
when she tried to commit she moved in with me and my boyfriend. Me having to balance working full time (at a TOXIC job) studying my last year at uni, looking after my brothers and making sure my sister didn't commit while I was away was the worst thing.
i ended up having to be on sick leave by doctors demand, get on depresso pills and some more.
since then I have switched city and job, my siblings have moved to a different country WITH her schizofrenic bf. Though I'm still not restored and am taking medication it's been ok.
well now 2 of my siblings have moved back home. My sister is depressed and wanting to commit again. she's moving back home on friday without her bf. She has nowhere to live and will most likely live with me and my boyfriend.
I'm completely stressed out I hate making it about me when my sister is so bad but I don't know how i can handle this responsibility once again I feel so helpless and so so tired of my life I can't do this again
So sorry for the long text im so stressed out