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2019 ended in a gigantic pile of shit and it all made it all into the beginning of 2020.
I wanted to discontinue my studies, all my job applications got rejected but one, however those invited me but then decided they didn't want me after all. I somehow passed my exams, even though i didn't care about them at all. I wanted to get a job during semester break but then covid happened and i have been broke and sitting at my parent's house ever since.
so to recap:
- i'm broke as fuck
- i don't have a job
- uni is too much and a part of me still doesn't care about it
- my sister and parents keep giving me shit for the smallest things
- my mental health has gotten worse again after i worked so much on it in the beginning of 2019
- everyone in this house has some sort of issue and i forgot how much i can't cope with those
- i developed chronic migraines and random pain flares
There have been positive parts too, like me being able to go on walks more frequently and spending more time with my cats, but for the most part it was a wasted year.