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Chat0yant
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Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:
atm like everything??? school, apartment, relationships, mental health n so on, idk not much is going my way atm
but yes i have my cat Herman and designing so <3

ooh yeah you are a designer!! lol don't mind me i don't keep up w/ things

school i def. relate to. it's not fun. Are you just overwhelmed with hw or is it a problem with your major or teachers..?

can i see your cat and/or wip then?

Haha I’ve only been for a week so that’s not too weird x)
ye I just got of sick leave n idk just have 0 energy or anything and failed my last class since.. I didn’t hand anything in cus I’m too exhausted idk man, also I can’t afford schools outside of the country but I don’t wanna go at anything here and idk
ok so my wip is messy but here’s my latest finished piece

and here is Herman hehehehe

OOOH I LOVE THAT set tho'!! like the hair and the belt and that hand combo?!?

and omgosh his face

i just wanna kiss that little head o' his! He is a precious little hunk!
also ps that sky in the bg is gorgeous! Looks like you have a decent view at least?

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ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:
ooh yeah you are a designer!! lol don't mind me i don't keep up w/ things

school i def. relate to. it's not fun. Are you just overwhelmed with hw or is it a problem with your major or teachers..?

can i see your cat and/or wip then?

Haha I’ve only been for a week so that’s not too weird x)
ye I just got of sick leave n idk just have 0 energy or anything and failed my last class since.. I didn’t hand anything in cus I’m too exhausted idk man, also I can’t afford schools outside of the country but I don’t wanna go at anything here and idk
ok so my wip is messy but here’s my latest finished piece
X
and here is Herman hehehehe

X

OOOH I LOVE THAT set tho'!! like the hair and the belt and that hand combo?!?

and omgosh his face

i just wanna kiss that little head o' his! He is a precious little hunk!
also ps that sky in the bg is gorgeous! Looks like you have a decent view at least?

Ah thank u!! Yes I’m working on creating more hands and items for them <33
yes!! He’s so gorgeous I love him deeply <3
and yes! I have a fantastic view from the fourth floor w a window that’s almost the entire wall, truly the best part of my apartment

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I feel fatigued and a sense of hopelessness. I don't know what my place in this world is. I feel melancholic, a feeling I've had since forever, as long as I can remember. As a child, alone in my room. And I'm alone as an adult. Life repeats itself. I get close then torn away, I'm never there I'm always almost. Almost happy, almost trust, almost loved. Sadness on the other hand is a constant, a given, it's never almost it always is.

Chat0yant
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Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:
Haha I’ve only been for a week so that’s not too weird x)
ye I just got of sick leave n idk just have 0 energy or anything and failed my last class since.. I didn’t hand anything in cus I’m too exhausted idk man, also I can’t afford schools outside of the country but I don’t wanna go at anything here and idk
ok so my wip is messy but here’s my latest finished piece
X
and here is Herman hehehehe

X

OOOH I LOVE THAT set tho'!! like the hair and the belt and that hand combo?!?

and omgosh his face

i just wanna kiss that little head o' his! He is a precious little hunk!
also ps that sky in the bg is gorgeous! Looks like you have a decent view at least?

Ah thank u!! Yes I’m working on creating more hands and items for them <33
yes!! He’s so gorgeous I love him deeply <3
and yes! I have a fantastic view from the fourth floor w a window that’s almost the entire wall, truly the best part of my apartment

how have you been lately tho'? Are you feeling better now?

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ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:
OOOH I LOVE THAT set tho'!! like the hair and the belt and that hand combo?!?

and omgosh his face

i just wanna kiss that little head o' his! He is a precious little hunk!
also ps that sky in the bg is gorgeous! Looks like you have a decent view at least?

Ah thank u!! Yes I’m working on creating more hands and items for them <33
yes!! He’s so gorgeous I love him deeply <3
and yes! I have a fantastic view from the fourth floor w a window that’s almost the entire wall, truly the best part of my apartment

how have you been lately tho'? Are you feeling better now?

Nah not really, shit is getting worse again and I’m not really getting the help I need so idk, don’t really know what to do tbh

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Jollu wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

Jollu wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:
ahh a fellow student, ain't school fun! My motivation has been at like 0.5% since covid and like...i have so many years of school left.... and two tests next week

it's no bueno...no bueno at all...

and oh about the food. fooding is hard sometimes...can you get something yummy to make you eat or does that not help?

I don't have any energy to make food. Last days I have ate frozen pizza but thats not very nutrient rich food I think.

oof well at least you're getting some proteins! and tomato veggies! silver linings!

yay!

somedays all you can do is all you can do and it's okk

maybe can u get some easy to get things like the fancy tv dinners w/ veggies and meat (or other protein if u no meat) or some deli stuff and apples that are easy? or v8 or some protein/meal replacer shakes?

Idk I should learn how to make good home made food. I have been vegetarian since 2016 but still don't know how to make good vegetarian food.

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Chat0yant wrote:

C4TH3DR4L wrote:
I feel fatigued and a sense of hopelessness. I don't know what my place in this world is. I feel melancholic, a feeling I've had since forever, as long as I can remember. As a child, alone in my room. And I'm alone as an adult. Life repeats itself. I get close then torn away, I'm never there I'm always almost. Almost happy, almost trust, almost loved. Sadness on the other hand is a constant, a given, it's never almost it always is.

I feel that honestly a little too much sometimes....

especially when i've failed to go to bed and it's like 4am and i've done nothing i've needed to do that night and i'm just like.....

(sorry i talk in gif's sometimes). it sounds like you need a constant in your life b/e i'd just be a complete and utter disaster (more than i already am!) without it... what do you think is your purpose in life...or meaning behind your precious life?

Chat0yant
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Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:
Ah thank u!! Yes I’m working on creating more hands and items for them <33
yes!! He’s so gorgeous I love him deeply <3
and yes! I have a fantastic view from the fourth floor w a window that’s almost the entire wall, truly the best part of my apartment

how have you been lately tho'? Are you feeling better now?

Nah not really, shit is getting worse again and I’m not really getting the help I need so idk, don’t really know what to do tbh

do you need to see like a doctor or therapist? cause it sounds like it won't just spontaneously get better and things like that tend to only get harder the longer you wait (unfortunately)

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ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:
how have you been lately tho'? Are you feeling better now?

Nah not really, shit is getting worse again and I’m not really getting the help I need so idk, don’t really know what to do tbh

do you need to see like a doctor or therapist? cause it sounds like it won't just spontaneously get better and things like that tend to only get harder the longer you wait (unfortunately)

Oh I already am, been going for almost 10 years now :-p

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Chat0yant wrote:

Jollu wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

Jollu wrote:
I don't have any energy to make food. Last days I have ate frozen pizza but thats not very nutrient rich food I think.

oof well at least you're getting some proteins! and tomato veggies! silver linings!

yay!

somedays all you can do is all you can do and it's okk

maybe can u get some easy to get things like the fancy tv dinners w/ veggies and meat (or other protein if u no meat) or some deli stuff and apples that are easy? or v8 or some protein/meal replacer shakes?

Idk I should learn how to make good home made food. I have been vegetarian since 2016 but still don't know how to make good vegetarian food.

i'm sure there is plant based protein powder cause my mom uses it! and that definitely makes it harder to get cheap easy protein sometimes...maybe find ways to make cooking fun? like i can't cook with a normal cookbook cause it just look at it and am like

(nope) so maybe find some easy recipes or books and try some more specific or free haphazardy to find your own style of how you like to cook? but that's interesting that so many people are no meat now. Why did you decide to do that?

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Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:
Nah not really, shit is getting worse again and I’m not really getting the help I need so idk, don’t really know what to do tbh

do you need to see like a doctor or therapist? cause it sounds like it won't just spontaneously get better and things like that tend to only get harder the longer you wait (unfortunately)

Oh I already am, been going for almost 10 years now :-p

well that's good! Have you talked to them about what's going on or have u been...y'know... just kinda skipping over it...?

(relatable). or is your therapist not really caring as much as they should...? like do you need a new one?

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Love y'all i'll be back in a couple hours gotta go to salt now! (my campus ministry meeting

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ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:

ellem wrote:

Chat0yant wrote:
do you need to see like a doctor or therapist? cause it sounds like it won't just spontaneously get better and things like that tend to only get harder the longer you wait (unfortunately)

Oh I already am, been going for almost 10 years now :-p

well that's good! Have you talked to them about what's going on or have u been...y'know... just kinda skipping over it...?

(relatable). or is your therapist not really caring as much as they should...? like do you need a new one?

Nah I tell them what’s going on n shit but I kinda just don’t get the right help??? Idk haha nothing is getting any better

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Chat0yant wrote:

C4TH3DR4L wrote:
I feel fatigued and a sense of hopelessness. I don't know what my place in this world is. I feel melancholic, a feeling I've had since forever, as long as I can remember. As a child, alone in my room. And I'm alone as an adult. Life repeats itself. I get close then torn away, I'm never there I'm always almost. Almost happy, almost trust, almost loved. Sadness on the other hand is a constant, a given, it's never almost it always is.

I feel that honestly a little too much sometimes....

especially when i've failed to go to bed and it's like 4am and i've done nothing i've needed to do that night and i'm just like.....

(sorry i talk in gif's sometimes). it sounds like you need a constant in your life b/e i'd just be a complete and utter disaster (more than i already am!) without it... what do you think is your purpose in life...or meaning behind your precious life?

I want to help people and animals and make the world a better place, as cliche as it is. I don't want others to feel what I've felt

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DAD wrote:
pretty eh :/

my birthday (outside of vp) was pretty bad again this year and i have to spend the rest of it packing my belongings because i have to move 1,5k miles away from my home and im just super stressed lately.