Versailles wrote:ouch wrote:Versailles wrote:
tbh mood for someone who's not religious, just thinking '' i need jesus''
what did u do wrong tho
I didn't do anything but I just realized I think theres a reason why I can't fuck ppl when im sober tbh cus it happened for the first time in 2 years n afterwards I couldn't even breathe or stop crying for two hours n I feel at that point, abstinence n waiting until the right person (possibly marriage idk) but also just I wanna forget everything that has happened before n go as I am a virgin eventually w new ppl uknow. Idk if that makes sense but it makes sense in my head
sounds traumatizing ngl, im sorry that u go through this. You know, you don't need to fuck someone at all until u feel comfy with someone. You shouldn't do something that upsets you, period. Marriage is just institution that doesn't get rid of the other issues, it's more of economical thingy now.
Honestly i know u dont wanna do this but literally be open about this with a near family member, school nurse or doctor.
I very much don't feel the need to talk abt it w anyone real, but the problem is that I AM comfortable with the people I do it w and I don't do stuff I don't want to, I just regret it afterwards cus thats when the disgust hits and everything is awful forever, hence why I only do it when im drunk cus I don't care enough to regret it or feel gross then