Anachronism wrote:Claire wrote:Barbarella wrote:
I think its more than just brainwashing, more like, desperately roped into it under the threat of homelessness lol
well i mean more the placing our value on our jobs. and our personality.
i had heard in china when you introduce yourself youd be like 'hi im claire im jacks daughter and dougs wife' like you identify yoursself based on your relationships to other people. but in america id be like 'hi im claire im a secretary'
like thats not who i am. my job is not who i am so why do americans do that as our identity.
i want to say 'hi im claire im into anime and art and movies'
Yeah
Like, I think my value as a person is to be a hard worker. I lack a career and make shit money, hence I'm a failure, and I'm so upset I didnt start one earlier, to have one is better than none ever but it still feels like a flaw and irreversible mistake and I wonder if I'd have more potential if my career started at 22-24 like it was "supposed" to
I mean I'll pick up overtime not even for the money, but because I'm lazy if I dont, my value is tied to working a lot, I feel hardened by constantly working
Maybe that's why I feel empty, what I do and how I rank in society is attracted to my identity
The funny thing is I would never tell a person they need to work over 40 hours a week to be worthy