cobain wrote:
now he wants me to come over bc he's worried about school
i've been there quite a lot lately bc he wants me there all the time. the last 7 days i've had TWO nights at home, alone. and work almost every day on top of that ha ha im literally going bonkers bc im never left alone haha.
idk why he expects so much, i can't take it and i've explained this to him a million fucking times and he saysz he understands and actually seems to understand but he CAN'T understand when he keeps persuading me to come over.
and lately it's all been "im feeling bad please come over" and yes wow it sounds like so much fun to come over and listen to you rant about the same thing again like u have for the last year (he has like a cycle of things that goes wrong for him at least once a week. school > messy apartment > family > me > feeling sick/is hurt). no wonder i kinda shut off my ears. that's shitty of me but i work w dementia patients and i don't need to hear repeated monologues at home too, ya know. coping mechanism, let's survive ya know.
anyways yeah he wants me over now bc he's scared he's gonna get kicked out from school and i've told him he won't. doesn't matter if he's fucking behind or hasn't done everything on time, you can solve it. truUUUst me. and he's got quite bad adhd, his teacher's aware of that and it wouldn't surprise me if he could get like "special treatment" because of it (like extra time even tho u don't get extra time since he obviously has difficulties due to his diagnosis). but nahhhh let's not listen to me with my dumb things to say LOL i can't be right about this. the world is about to end and we can't solve shit. let's sulk and not do anything about it for the next week or two.
if shit gets fucking solved; WHICH IT IS - why would a teacher not want to help someone lmfao???? i'm gonna be PISSED at him for not listening to me. i know it's not easy when you feel like you're deep in the shit but please please not everyone is out to get you