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my bf called me a stupid wh*re

Gilmore
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Gilmore wrote:

hutsu wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

hutsu wrote:
TW sh

so like. i was trying to calm down in the other room and he's playing his guitar. the metronome ticking and the unsettling rhythm in the song he's playing add on my anxiety like.... a lot, and i asked him to turn it down. he obviously wouldn't, and i was already so close to a breaking point that i ended up grabbing a kitchen knife and locked myself into the bathroom - not necessarily to do anything with the knife - and then he told me to "have a good time cutting myself". so i ended up cutting and i'm so ashamed and disappointed and i'm scared of him yelling at me if he notices the cuts

also thank you so much for talking to me
i hate ranting in public like this but i'm too ashamed to talk to anyone

How long has this been going on? Has he always been like this? How long have you two been together? Don't answer if it's too much

i was abused in the past, met this guy whom i connected with, we had a lot on common and things were pretty magical at first. then i started remembering details of the past trauma which pretty much crippled me and he wanted to support me so badly that i told him pretty much every detail of the most horrible things ever happened to me. he never sought help and started showing ptsd-like symptoms from my trauma experiences, and there seem to be no boundaries on how far he will go to ease his own pain by hurting me. he keeps promising to get help but it's been 1.5 years and idk if it'll ever happen

anyway that's the tip of an iceberg

That sounds really rough. Keep in mind that it's not your fault and opening up is sometimes risky but always worth it. I hope you both get the help you need, although it seems you guys really should be apart while doing that.

Yeah I appreciate you not telling everything, after all it's your life and your issues and you have every right to keep it to yourself
Very brave to talk about it though!

Private
Princess of Pop

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:
You just said you didn't get hurt and I didn't even mean to hurt you, so what the hell is the issue here?

I’m not hurt, but you need to learn to think before you speak / write, I have been there, where I never had been thinking before I spoke or wrote, and damn I won’t recommend it at all ;-;

Seriously, what a broken record this conversation is. I already said that I think before I write, I'm just straightforward. No need to get butthurt, you obviously are.

I’m not ;-;

Gilmore
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Gilmore wrote:

Angelica wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:
You just said you didn't get hurt and I didn't even mean to hurt you, so what the hell is the issue here?

I’m not hurt, but you need to learn to think before you speak / write, I have been there, where I never had been thinking before I spoke or wrote, and damn I won’t recommend it at all ;-;

Quote me if im wrong gilmore, but i think the reaction comes because they didn't think that op calling them ex or bf matter in the situation right now, what matters is giving op the support they might need right now! 😕

Thanks, exactly what I meant.

Gilmore
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Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:
I’m not hurt, but you need to learn to think before you speak / write, I have been there, where I never had been thinking before I spoke or wrote, and damn I won’t recommend it at all ;-;

Seriously, what a broken record this conversation is. I already said that I think before I write, I'm just straightforward. No need to get butthurt, you obviously are.

I’m not ;-;

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

Private
Princess of Pop

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:
Seriously, what a broken record this conversation is. I already said that I think before I write, I'm just straightforward. No need to get butthurt, you obviously are.

I’m not ;-;

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

It’s a normal conversation, but oki

Aphrodite
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Aphrodite wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:
I’m not ;-;

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

It’s a normal conversation, but oki

..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

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Princess of Pop

Limited wrote:

Aphrodite wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:
I'm not dealing with this anymore.

It’s a normal conversation, but oki

..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

Private
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coco wrote:

Limited wrote:

Aphrodite wrote:

Limited wrote:
It’s a normal conversation, but oki

..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

this is not the place

Aphrodite
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Aphrodite wrote:

coco wrote:

Limited wrote:

Aphrodite wrote:
..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

this is not the place

Exactly.

Gilmore
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Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:
I’m not ;-;

I'm not dealing with this anymore.

It’s a normal conversation, but oki

That's what I tried to tell you, but you kept saying that I didn't think about what I was writing and saying I was negative because I stated facts. Time for a reality check, maybe?

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Raquelle wrote:

Limited wrote:

Aphrodite wrote:

Limited wrote:
It’s a normal conversation, but oki

..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

You are abusing the power you have as a team member and the power you have to the potential applicant - Gilmore - by mentioning the teams and applications in the discussion completely unrelated to it. I really hope someone in the FT will have a discussion with you. This is Not the place.

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GvcciGoddess wrote:
If a man ever called me a stupid whore id bash his balls in with a brick <3

Gilmore
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Gilmore wrote:

coco wrote:

Limited wrote:

Aphrodite wrote:
..... so then why were teams brought up in the convo

so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

this is not the place

Exactly. As I also said, this is not the place to say that "he should be an ex". OP has been abused and has opened up, we don't know the background.
So I call a rude comment out and she calls that being negative? Right, okay.

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Princess of Pop

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:
I'm not dealing with this anymore.

It’s a normal conversation, but oki

That's what I tried to tell you, but you kept saying that I didn't think about what I was writing and saying I was negative because I stated facts. Time for a reality check, maybe?

Yeah, im sorry. :c

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Princess of Pop

Limited wrote:

Gilmore wrote:

coco wrote:

Limited wrote:
so when you bring up a team thing, it’s not a normal conversation? it’s just a normal conversation, nothing else.

this is not the place

No need to dig more into it ;_;

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