Maxwell wrote:MayaTheRat wrote:
I hate myself again

did smthin specific happen or is it just in general
I like to treat it w cryin, no stiffle cry, like all out screamin but that also depends if u r home alone or not.. bcus I c it as like mm, energy is always flowin nd a lot of sad nd self hatred is a lot of energy nd therefore it needs to go somewhere
This is either awful or great advice !
Or u cud try spendin the energy on smthin else or tire urself out
Or hmmm write it down to get it out I like that too bcus iften when I start writin nd got it down Im like omg Im kinda cringe rn, which helps on the mood!
I just feel like such a sht person I saw a vid of when I was a kid I was shy and really nice but something happened in middle school witch completely changed me and I feel bad for all the people I hurt especially my parents I feel bad cuz there so perfect and I'm just a screw up I say I don't care when I give the biggest shit then I just go and cry about it I wish I wasn't born sometimes my family would have been so happy now they hate me and I miss them alot they hate me I'm a horrible person I'm never going to live up to their expectations and I'm sorry I really am .