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Cobain
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cobain wrote:
feelin bad n guilty bc of my ex again btw
there were reasons why the relationship ended, obviously, but he was such a big safety for me. i always felt so safe with him and when everything else was so chaotic for me, he was stable and grounded and kept me sane. basically. i miss that a lot. now when things are a bit chaotic i feel very alone and miss him even more
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Date: 09-11-2021 21:04
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cobain wrote:
today i realized the world is too small when my bestie happened to stand right behind him in line to get vaccinated. in another town. bestie wasn't sure it was him but i was like "if his perfume made u cum it was him" n bestie was like "actually i couldnt stop thinking about how fucking good he smells" so it definitely was him. i swear he has some fucking black magic aphrodisiac shit in that prefume

and when i was in the store i bumped into the first coworker i ever fucked and i've just happened to bump into him quite a lot recently. literally haunts me. he doesnt even live or work here and he only works night shifts but yeah no the universe just wants me to suffer
avoided him tho. i hid behind shelves n like ran around in circles so he wouldnt see me LMFAO i do not have the energy for him ugh. acts way too important for a guy w like 5cm dick sorry
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Posts: 10232
Date: 11-11-2021 22:12
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
not many men work in this field, i think it's like 10%. i don't want to know how i'd act in a workplace with more men
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Date: 11-11-2021 22:36
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cobain wrote:
ugh why do i still wanna bone him so bad LOOOOL
worked w him today and he's just so hot 😭😭😭😭😭 curly hair, puppy eyes, a beard.................. plsss can u blame me im fucking dying over here
still tension between us hehehsgdjdfg a bit flirty today but i was so stressed hah
i was "cuddling" w my fav old man n he was like "noooo stop it" (like it comes across as jokingly and it probably is at least to some extent but im still worried about this whole situation that he might think we're a couple lmfao) and then another man, who absolutely adores me, came and wanted to hold my hand and got rly happy when he saw me. so my guy (or whatever tf im gonna call him) was like "omg one is enough hello not TWO" and gave me this playful look ekldgjdfjglkdfklfgdkljdgfljgdf
anyways idk he doesn't act strange at work u know?? maybe the whole moving in thing was a misunderstanding or a joke that didn't quite land. or he just thought it was a good idea bc we're both looking for apartments???? idk man
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Date: 12-11-2021 19:36
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
that coworker who is the only one i've told, she asked me today if i've met him outside of work after he spent the night. she asked me why we haven't and i was like "i've not been single for very long u know so idk" and she was like "ahh yes ofc u can't rush into things. but u can just have some fun"
didn't wanna tell her my concerns abt him maybe thinking it's too serious or whatever bc i don't wanna make him seem weird lol whatever i guess time will tell wtf this is
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Date: 12-11-2021 19:41
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
Ok no it doesn't seem like he thinks we're a couple?? He said he's going to his ex hometown to talk to her mom or smth bc she wanted to talk to him?? Then he asked if I'd talked to my ex and I said we've texted a bit and he was like "do you want to get back with him" and I said no. Then we talked about a coworker that probably has the hots for him and he was like "maybe I'm gonna try with her" and I was like "haha ok" trying to not be awkward bc I thought he was serious LOL and he was like "lol I'm joking"
He wanted us to take our break at the same time but I can't, I can take my break whenever I want to, but his break is too late and I won't get back in time to do everything I need to do ugh
He's extra fucking hot today 😑😑😑😑😑
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Date: 13-11-2021 14:14
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
oooooh when me and another coworker were alone she was like "i'm gonna send u pics of ur love" n i was like "huh????" didn't understand shit lol. she sent me pics of us that night LOLLLLL then she wanted to know what's up between us n i was like "idk!!!!! i've just become single u know" and she was like "ok but ur single so what's the issue, go have fun, life's too short to not have fun. he's a REALLY nice guy, such a gentleman" etc

i didnt think she knew lol. or obviously i knew she was with us when we were out clubbing and i knew she'd taken ONE picture of us but uhh yeah lol. love her tho. loyal af
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Date: 13-11-2021 20:01
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cobain wrote:
anyways we're having a christmas party at work in like 2 weeks so 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
i'm gonna b all over him bc i know myself. i NEEEED to tone it down tho bc i have many backstabbing coworkers who would love to ruin things. the bosses are gonna be there as well. hopefully they leave early tho, along w the backstabbing coworkers bc they tend to be the most boring lol. the more drunk i get the less i can tone it down so i'm just hhhhhh
i'm going for predrinks w another coworker too so i'm gonna be drunk before the party itself omfgfiodgnkl
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Date: 13-11-2021 20:10
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cobain wrote:
yesterday he was like "everyhing's alright without me??" bc i was working and he had the day off. i was like "super calm n peaceful whenever ur not here ! jk ur old lady misses u" and he was like "juuuust my old lady?" and i was like "ok then, me and adgjkfldflg miss u too" so then he asked me to hop on a train to him LOL he was like "i can make u dinner, we can watch a movie, then we'll go back into town tomorrow and i'll go to *ex hometown*"
but it was already late af, like i'd be at his place 23.30 or some shit so i said no. lol
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Date: 15-11-2021 17:59
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
how is this man getting hotter and hotter by the minute
maybe it's just my sexual frustration 4 him that's like....... getting worse. probs

anywho today was kinda awkward????? bc that coworker who i told worked w us, the first time the 3 of us worked together since i told her and i didn't know how to behave. bc i knew she was analyzing us so bad LMFAO i got shy. but he was cute. winking at me n shit ohhhkgfl
as i was going home tho, he was like leaning on the table n looked knackered. she was there too, along w another coworker, and she was like "go with sofie home now and get some rest " n i was like wtffffedsflkdsf like obviously jokingly BUT BE MORE SUBTLE PLS im so sure the others can see on me and him that were all 😳😳😳😳 w each other so u dont need to say shit like that to raise the suspicion even more : (
dont even think he knows that she knows. man this is some shit isnt it
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Date: 16-11-2021 21:39
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cobain wrote:
Nah sry but I met him at the door now when we both started work (he sleeps at work sometimes). He was newly woken up n all cute n shit and HE SMELLS SO NICE PLEASE THIS US UNBEARABLE I JUST WANNA JUMP HIM I SWEAR 👹👹👹
fuck this lol fuuuuck this
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Date: 17-11-2021 07:34
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cobain wrote:
2day my dudes i got jealous as fuuuuuuuuuuck
lol wtf
a coworker my age, who works a different floor usually, comes down to us for 2 hours in the morning to help out bc our floor is wild and heavy. when she heard that he was working on the side he was working on, she wanted to b with him n already i was like hah 🙂🙂🙂
then idk they started talking abt something (that he had just mentioned briefly to me earlier) and he was like "come on i'll tell u" and they left to talk LOL. i was like 🙂🙂🙂🙂ok trying to not feel like a psycho
and THEN after i came back from my break they were eating breakfast together, alone in a fucking corner and idk fiddling w their phones and it sounded like they exchanged numbers but idk, and i got soOOO jealous and what sucks about me is that i have no poker face so it was probably noticeable as shit. i tried not even looking at them when i walked past bc I DONT WANT TO COME OFF AS LITERALLY CRAZY........ eventually the others joined them for breakfast, i sat in an armchair away from them (but still in talking distance, i usually sit there). that girl left, 30 mins late. when she had left, another coworker was like "look she was late now!! just bc *name* sat n flirted with her forever" n he just chuckled a bit awkwardly n was like "nooo i helped her w something". we looked at each other for like 0.0001 secodns but i swear that was enough 4 him to see i was jealous noooo 😭😭😭😭
i think he felt bad bc he literally cleaned up the entire kitchen for me after that. lol

pls i have not felt jelaous like this in FOREVER. i think the last time was before me and my ex got together, when i just had a crush on him and didn't know if the feelings were reciprocated n he talked to girls at work
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Date: 17-11-2021 16:36
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
bumped into my ex as i was heading home from the store
i just cant catch a break can i...........
we just catched up a bit n it was friendly n nice but still ohhhhhh
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Date: 17-11-2021 17:11
Cobain
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cobain wrote:
sry this is my monologue thread at this point
but i'm highly considering asking him if he wanna come over on saturday hehahehehhf bc he works tomorrow n sunday. if he spends the night @ my place he'd not have to travel early sunday morning (tho idek when he starts work on sunday ohh). shit is, i have plans on saturday, eating dinner w my dad n sister but i doubt that'll get very late but idk? 

pls i got so nervous now thinking about it loool
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Date: 18-11-2021 05:53
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cobain wrote:
Anyways we got each others snapchat on Thursday n shit and we've snapped every day lol but I'm starting to feel like I'm in too deep cuz he be like "I can't look at anyone else but you" and when I told him I'll help him at work tomorrow (bc he does a 14h shift for the third day in a row) he was like "just seeing you all day is enough for me" soooOOOOooOoOOooo
Jesus fuck
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Date: 21-11-2021 22:02
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