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bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:
heavy on the "one day when i do art"

crying...

i bought acryllic paint so that i could paint i just need to find the energy to do it ... i hate that u kinda have to clean up after doing physical painting ugh but i also dont fel lke digital painting AT ALL because i wanna have a pyhsical product a t the end

honestly i think physical painting is really nice and relaxing, Wayyyy more than digital art.. it's just unfortunate that i don't have time for it, or rather don't make time for it often enough -_-

but i kinda feel the opposite of what u said, with digital art i can kinda have it "everywhere" but the process just isn't as fun sadly.. or maybe i'm just catastrophizing it ijhrjkr

i used to be so into digital art but then i had no internet for 2 years (when i was in homeless shelter) and i turned to physical painting which i used to hate. and i like ... had to teach myself shit from the ground up because i didnt know how to mix the color i wanted etc. because i never had to worry abt that with digital art. and i really fell in love with guache and acryllic paint. its just very different to me to have a nice canvas i can hang in my room at the end

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Maxwell wrote:

hmm wrote:

Maxwell wrote:

hmm wrote:
u kinda started being more active during vp's calmer years... where were you in 2020 Wait i forgot u used to be a lurker. but if u weren't talking what were u doing...

I was lurking for my first years indeed, so much. Then there was some controversial thread nd evryone came in laughin and I was like omg and ppl just acted like we were friends I was like oh r we friends
And it got easier after that
I was a VERY shy kid like talk I wud go up for presentation and say 2 words and then break down crying and that was also me ok vp asdffhjk

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww oh my gawd i'm so glad u are part of us now for real

Me too!
:3
But I still am not good thas y I delete my startalks nd forums cus I get that same stage fright Im like omg y r u posting this who tf wud care to even read it :cry

but Im just insane in membrane cus I kno I read startalks or forums nd care and most of the time dont comment either cus Im so tired pls..

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bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:
guys i honestly feel a bit sad when i say this but i legitimately don't enjoy designing at all like even besides the creative aspect it could be a decent side hustle but i stopped liking it?!

i just need to reframe the way i see it honestley.

i get it

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bexxi wrote:

Maxwell wrote:

hmm wrote:

Maxwell wrote:
I was lurking for my first years indeed, so much. Then there was some controversial thread nd evryone came in laughin and I was like omg and ppl just acted like we were friends I was like oh r we friends
And it got easier after that
I was a VERY shy kid like talk I wud go up for presentation and say 2 words and then break down crying and that was also me ok vp asdffhjk

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww oh my gawd i'm so glad u are part of us now for real

Me too!
:3
But I still am not good thas y I delete my startalks nd forums cus I get that same stage fright Im like omg y r u posting this who tf wud care to even read it

but Im just insane in membrane cus I kno I read startalks or forums nd care and most of the time dont comment either cus Im so tired pls..

i love getting the hottest tea from the pizza bakkeren served by u pls never stop

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misjel wrote:

hmm wrote:
guys i honestly feel a bit sad when i say this but i legitimately don't enjoy designing at all like even besides the creative aspect it could be a decent side hustle but i stopped liking it?!

i just need to reframe the way i see it honestley.

how would you reframe it?

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hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:
i bought acryllic paint so that i could paint i just need to find the energy to do it ... i hate that u kinda have to clean up after doing physical painting ugh but i also dont fel lke digital painting AT ALL because i wanna have a pyhsical product a t the end

honestly i think physical painting is really nice and relaxing, Wayyyy more than digital art.. it's just unfortunate that i don't have time for it, or rather don't make time for it often enough -_-

but i kinda feel the opposite of what u said, with digital art i can kinda have it "everywhere" but the process just isn't as fun sadly.. or maybe i'm just catastrophizing it ijhrjkr

i used to be so into digital art but then i had no internet for 2 years (when i was in homeless shelter) and i turned to physical painting which i used to hate. and i like ... had to teach myself shit from the ground up because i didnt know how to mix the color i wanted etc. because i never had to worry abt that with digital art. and i really fell in love with guache and acryllic paint. its just very different to me to have a nice canvas i can hang in my room at the end

ohgggh whatt i'm so glad ur situation has gotten better

...

but i'm glad something good came out of it though ! i get that it's def nicer to have a Canvas rather than a print

hmm
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hmm wrote:

Maxwell wrote:

hmm wrote:

Maxwell wrote:
I was lurking for my first years indeed, so much. Then there was some controversial thread nd evryone came in laughin and I was like omg and ppl just acted like we were friends I was like oh r we friends
And it got easier after that
I was a VERY shy kid like talk I wud go up for presentation and say 2 words and then break down crying and that was also me ok vp asdffhjk

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww oh my gawd i'm so glad u are part of us now for real

Me too!
:3
But I still am not good thas y I delete my startalks nd forums cus I get that same stage fright Im like omg y r u posting this who tf wud care to even read it

but Im just insane in membrane cus I kno I read startalks or forums nd care and most of the time dont comment either cus Im so tired pls..

ok me too actually i'm constantly like No one gives a shite but we must overcome this because me personally i like to open vp when i'm commuting or just to check in quickly if i'm home so i never remember to actually engage with what people say (and i think this is a lot of people) but!!! any new posts are Good lowkey

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misjel wrote:

Dwaal wrote:

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HELLO MISJEL

Nice to hear you're doing good! I think we all miss long thread vp...

hiii how u doinggg
yeah bring back active vp can we steal some people from gsm

Also I'm doing greaaaat just finishing my masters that I'm crazy behind on rn this year

which is also why I'm labbing and uniing at 11pm -.-

in the night?? that's crazy i read it as am at first, are you extending your studies or just doing hella catchup work?
fingers crossed you're soon done omg??+

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bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:
honestly i think physical painting is really nice and relaxing, Wayyyy more than digital art.. it's just unfortunate that i don't have time for it, or rather don't make time for it often enough -_-

but i kinda feel the opposite of what u said, with digital art i can kinda have it "everywhere" but the process just isn't as fun sadly.. or maybe i'm just catastrophizing it ijhrjkr

i used to be so into digital art but then i had no internet for 2 years (when i was in homeless shelter) and i turned to physical painting which i used to hate. and i like ... had to teach myself shit from the ground up because i didnt know how to mix the color i wanted etc. because i never had to worry abt that with digital art. and i really fell in love with guache and acryllic paint. its just very different to me to have a nice canvas i can hang in my room at the end

ohgggh whatt i'm so glad ur situation has gotten better

...

but i'm glad something good came out of it though ! i get that it's def nicer to have a Canvas rather than a print

i even sold some artwork on the side to make some illegal side money back then haha
for soem reason ppl were really into buying paintins on wood pannels from former wine barrels

i wanan talk more but i gotta sleep now ugh i should have been alseep since an hour ago ... i have school tmr ... gooby everyone

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Meister wrote:

misjel wrote:

Meister wrote:

misjel wrote:
meister feed us some drama

If i decide to go back to GSM it wil be like this!
x

lolll what happened

Im bad at explaining things and i caused some drama there and here.
And since im bad at that people take things the wrong way and when im trying to explain what i meant from the start things got ugly fast.
I see things from 10 different angles and i ask questions that people want to ignore or want to admit.
One time at GSM people wanted to talk about the Eurovsion and was bullied, a user that had a status symbol was mean. They was bragging about their supervisor was proud of them bullying other people.
I made a new model after being banned and i think i posted 3 things in a year, and i was lurking and the biggest bullies was proud of their behaviors.

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hmm wrote:

misjel wrote:

hmm wrote:
guys i honestly feel a bit sad when i say this but i legitimately don't enjoy designing at all like even besides the creative aspect it could be a decent side hustle but i stopped liking it?!

i just need to reframe the way i see it honestley.

how would you reframe it?

hmm idk i think i need to let go of the pressures to be perfect and satisfy people's expectations of my art, though the reason why i even started in the first place was because of people's praise and validation... but i want to work on finding ways to make the process itself enjoyable and to be content with my own satisfaction of the final product, though of course with anything creative it's impossible to not care about people's reaction to it

hmm
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hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:
i used to be so into digital art but then i had no internet for 2 years (when i was in homeless shelter) and i turned to physical painting which i used to hate. and i like ... had to teach myself shit from the ground up because i didnt know how to mix the color i wanted etc. because i never had to worry abt that with digital art. and i really fell in love with guache and acryllic paint. its just very different to me to have a nice canvas i can hang in my room at the end

ohgggh whatt i'm so glad ur situation has gotten better

...

but i'm glad something good came out of it though ! i get that it's def nicer to have a Canvas rather than a print

i even sold some artwork on the side to make some illegal side money back then haha
for soem reason ppl were really into buying paintins on wood pannels from former wine barrels

i wanan talk more but i gotta sleep now ugh i should have been alseep since an hour ago ... i have school tmr ... gooby everyone

woahh i see this is so fun

no me too actually JHBEGBDJNE i also must sleep soon... goodnighty bexxi

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misjel wrote:

bexxi wrote:

hmm wrote:

bexxi wrote:
i used to be so into digital art but then i had no internet for 2 years (when i was in homeless shelter) and i turned to physical painting which i used to hate. and i like ... had to teach myself shit from the ground up because i didnt know how to mix the color i wanted etc. because i never had to worry abt that with digital art. and i really fell in love with guache and acryllic paint. its just very different to me to have a nice canvas i can hang in my room at the end

ohgggh whatt i'm so glad ur situation has gotten better

...

but i'm glad something good came out of it though ! i get that it's def nicer to have a Canvas rather than a print

i even sold some artwork on the side to make some illegal side money back then haha
for soem reason ppl were really into buying paintins on wood pannels from former wine barrels

i wanan talk more but i gotta sleep now ugh i should have been alseep since an hour ago ... i have school tmr ... gooby everyone

nighty bexxiiii

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misjel wrote:

hmm wrote:

misjel wrote:

hmm wrote:
guys i honestly feel a bit sad when i say this but i legitimately don't enjoy designing at all like even besides the creative aspect it could be a decent side hustle but i stopped liking it?!

i just need to reframe the way i see it honestley.

how would you reframe it?

hmm idk i think i need to let go of the pressures to be perfect and satisfy people's expectations of my art, though the reason why i even started in the first place was because of people's praise and validation... but i want to work on finding ways to make the process itself enjoyable and to be content with my own satisfaction of the final product, though of course with anything creative it's impossible to not care about people's reaction to it

hmmm i see, probably hard to overcome if it's pure mental but I'm sure you can find ways to enjoy the process of it more maybe connect it with something u do physically if it makes sense

do you think drawing is the same or just designing? maybe u could do some speed designs/drawings and not necessarily submit omg so many suggestions oops

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hmm wrote:
anyway guys i must sleep now but my personal chronically offline goals are
- more studying
- read books or articles
- draw a tiny bit

that's all