Abby wrote:HARMA wrote:Abby wrote:
aaaa what a good question to let the existential dread come again.
I live for knowledge, for answers, for the experiences
now when I read it out loud it sounds a bit pretentious but it is what it is I guess
i've noticed that people who are actually out there living their lives and minding their business don't usually call people out for being pretentious or put them down in other words or ways for expressing themselves. if it's real for you that's cool, you've found something to exist for.
yeah when people are truly comfortable or at least have an idea of what to do, they won't even think twice about others
and well the dread comes every now and then, but I want to believe that in a way, I've found my purpose, or what I aim to do, and want to.
honestly i've lived with an ongoing existential crisis since i was 5. that's not very healthy, would not recommend. but i've had to tend to it and based on this purely empirical view i'd say that it's actually really fucking healthy to come around to it every once in a while. the dread is what it is, painful and heavy and scary, but it often helps you to put things into perspective that works for you. sometimes the only way to a solution comes from stripping your mind down. then deciding on humble or prideful.