lain wrote:Teabag wrote:
No i just fuckin hate the feelin. I think it's like partly a sensory thing?
I wanted to take a shower before walking today, that’s what started it all. Like i hadnt showered for a couple of days so there was like a bunch of build up. So i felt disgusting and wanted shower but i know how unnecessary it is right before walk. But felt so 🤮 so brain went back and forth and paralized me not knowing what to do.
I tried to explain to mom how i felt. And said something like "it just feels like theres too much of me on myself and that makes me feel yucky and i just gotta take a shower to restart"
And thats when she said that seems unhealthy... and i cant stop thinking abt it
hmmm i think ur mom maybe misunderstood what u meant a bit??
i dont think thats unhealthy no, i feel like a lot of people want to shower before they go outside gfdjh but if its like a compulsive thing that you HAVE to do no matter what and its stopping you from going outside entirely or smth yeah that would be "unhealthy"
but i agree with maxwell, wanting to feel clean is not a bad thing :3
I really needed to hear this cus i genuinely couldn't think how it would be wrong to wanna be clean. But if it was unhealthy thinkin i would hav to rewire my brain