Sharkaz wrote:
a bit of introduction first, I'm 20 years old, been officially diagnosed with anxiety at 15 and autism last year. In both cases I was the one who decided to seek diagnosis after a long time of reflecting, anxiety was because I recognized myself a lot in most of the symptoms that I've been having since I was a kid. On the other hand, I started questioning myself about autism about 2 years ago, my ex partner was autistic as well and we frequently talked about it, he's the one who implied I should look into it and I'm thankful I did !
Anxiety diagnosis went pretty smoothly, autism however... yikes. As an adult woman it is extremely difficult to find signs of autism as most of them usually are pretty well hidden and not that noticeable from an outside perspective (depending on where you stand on the spectrum of course!). It took a lot of thinking as well as a look of courage to seek a professional diagnosis, and free centers take years to get back to you so I had to see a psychiatrist specialized in diagnosing autism in adults, which is very expensive (my family isn't really wealthy so that was complicated to say the least).
In the end I believe I "self diagnosed" for a while waiting for the results, mostly because I was distressed and kind of waiting for a positive answer (scary yet feels like an answer to a lifetime of questioning what's "wrong" with your brain), I did keep it to myself but considering myself autistic before knowing it felt reassuring, although now I think it might've been dangerous cause if I learned that I in fact wasn't autistic it probably would've fucked with my brain.
ANYWAYS, because of all this I'm not sure where I stand on the self diag topic, is it a good thing ? a bad thing ? in which cases is it good or bad ? i'm so curious to hear your thought !!!
I KNOW THIS IS A CONTROVERSIAL TOPIC but I do think it's really interesting and I'd love to hear you guys' opinions !
a bit of introduction first, I'm 20 years old, been officially diagnosed with anxiety at 15 and autism last year. In both cases I was the one who decided to seek diagnosis after a long time of reflecting, anxiety was because I recognized myself a lot in most of the symptoms that I've been having since I was a kid. On the other hand, I started questioning myself about autism about 2 years ago, my ex partner was autistic as well and we frequently talked about it, he's the one who implied I should look into it and I'm thankful I did !
Anxiety diagnosis went pretty smoothly, autism however... yikes. As an adult woman it is extremely difficult to find signs of autism as most of them usually are pretty well hidden and not that noticeable from an outside perspective (depending on where you stand on the spectrum of course!). It took a lot of thinking as well as a look of courage to seek a professional diagnosis, and free centers take years to get back to you so I had to see a psychiatrist specialized in diagnosing autism in adults, which is very expensive (my family isn't really wealthy so that was complicated to say the least).
In the end I believe I "self diagnosed" for a while waiting for the results, mostly because I was distressed and kind of waiting for a positive answer (scary yet feels like an answer to a lifetime of questioning what's "wrong" with your brain), I did keep it to myself but considering myself autistic before knowing it felt reassuring, although now I think it might've been dangerous cause if I learned that I in fact wasn't autistic it probably would've fucked with my brain.
ANYWAYS, because of all this I'm not sure where I stand on the self diag topic, is it a good thing ? a bad thing ? in which cases is it good or bad ? i'm so curious to hear your thought !!!