Limbs wrote:
with going home to visit my family and stuff
i want to go see my lil brother but all of the other stuff about being home makes me feel awful. like i decided yesterday that i'm gonna go visit them this weekend and immediately last night i had a nightmare about my dad lol.... i'm so anxious already and dreading it, but i need to go cuz i would regret it so much if i don't go see my lil bro
anyway it just always feels bad cuz my stepmom is manipulative and shitty and angry at me all the time, the last few years of living at home just felt like a nightmare and every time i go back it just feels like that again, and there's some uhhhhh weird stuff with my dad that makes me anxious / want to vomit and stuff but idk what that is rly
so
how can i like be more ok with these things? and make going home more bearable? cuz there are some good things as well, like their dog, my little brother and my sister's kids and the summer cabin. and i don't wanna miss out on those. but the bad stuff just always wrecks my mental health hhhgdhf
with going home to visit my family and stuff
i want to go see my lil brother but all of the other stuff about being home makes me feel awful. like i decided yesterday that i'm gonna go visit them this weekend and immediately last night i had a nightmare about my dad lol.... i'm so anxious already and dreading it, but i need to go cuz i would regret it so much if i don't go see my lil bro
anyway it just always feels bad cuz my stepmom is manipulative and shitty and angry at me all the time, the last few years of living at home just felt like a nightmare and every time i go back it just feels like that again, and there's some uhhhhh weird stuff with my dad that makes me anxious / want to vomit and stuff but idk what that is rly
so
how can i like be more ok with these things? and make going home more bearable? cuz there are some good things as well, like their dog, my little brother and my sister's kids and the summer cabin. and i don't wanna miss out on those. but the bad stuff just always wrecks my mental health hhhgdhf