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Hajime
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Hajime wrote:
yeah I haven't been feeling good since yesterday, just too much shit that happened at once and like
suddenly
it was like 1am ? it all hit me at once and i had like 3 anxiety attacks and cried until i passed out and i woke up really tired even thought i slept like 9 hours

i just want some kind friends who ic an troll 24/7 like u know................ idk
bc its not like my friends have no humour or dont understand me trolling but they never talk to me and like idk i hate when people scream at me and shit it really hurts and makes me REALLY upset
or just hearing someone scream right next to me at someone? why is it so hard to compliment someone rather than just screaming at someone for the sake of making others feel bad jsut bc u feel like shit i'll never understand

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:
also like idk i live in such a toxic household, all my siblings hate me despite ME being the oldest
they make fun of me constantly, hit me and hurt me so much and even my mom and dad join in on the BULLYING
i think its bc like.. im too nice ? because i really dont like pointing out stuff i dislike about others bc tahts whats been happening to me all my life, i prefer telling others what i like about them but all i ever receive is negativity
i cant be mad bc whenever i get upset they turn it around on me and are mad at me
im just really upset and empty

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:
i just ate after i didnt eat properly in a few days and while eating my stomach started to hurt i really hate this

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Flamink wrote:
im so sorry to hear that, is there any possibility of you moving out of your current household? and about your friends, im sorry to hear that, do you have any special interest or something? i feel like focusing on that often leads to new relationships and new possibilities

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:
im so sorry to hear that, is there any possibility of you moving out of your current household? and about your friends, im sorry to hear that, do you have any special interest or something? i feel like focusing on that often leads to new relationships and new possibilities

unfortunately i can't move out! its bc many reasons
and also the apartments where I live are OVERPRICED AS FUCK id have to already have a stable income and all that.. im just patiently waiting

and yea !! i am trying to be active in online communities in stuff im interested in like art, anime etc but there r also many people who r.. v weird? like i met really crazy people who hacked my accounts and all that crazy stuff u know !

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Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:
im so sorry to hear that, is there any possibility of you moving out of your current household? and about your friends, im sorry to hear that, do you have any special interest or something? i feel like focusing on that often leads to new relationships and new possibilities

unfortunately i can't move out! its bc many reasons
and also the apartments where I live are OVERPRICED AS FUCK id have to already have a stable income and all that.. im just patiently waiting

and yea !! i am trying to be active in online communities in stuff im interested in like art, anime etc but there r also many people who r.. v weird? like i met really crazy people who hacked my accounts and all that crazy stuff u know !

aah i understand tbh, its honestly not easy to find something cheap. im sure your patience will pay off, and im rooting for u ! which country are you from - if its ok i ask ofc

oof i feel you, some anime fans keep me away from a lot of anime/art interested communties. i feel like its often very toxic, weird and.. well.. sexual. and i aint about that. that sounds awful wth?? i hope you dont experience stuff like that anymore sad

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:
also my mom has been so weird lately
like ive been visibly upset for 2 days but i dont like talking abt it but she keeps saying "why do u look like someone who hates me and who judges me" like ? can u stop fucking assuming shit so i HAVE to say noo i lvoe u aha haha
like its so annoying she keeps making me feel even worse than i already feel, she doesnt care abt me at all
like i think one of my aunts blocked her on whatsapp and she kept saying its a conspiracy someone is making against her and that someone keeps saying shes talking badly abt others and thats not true and like..
it is true ? u talk so badly abt our aunts and shit, ur so bitter others have a good relationship and seemed so bitter when 3 of my aunts divorced their husband and u kept badmouthing them as if a divorce is soo bad like ? i would rather have divorced parents than parents who scream at eachother and drag their kids into it but its just me i guess
and she also said oh why did she block me ? i didnt do anything ?
and wanted to cry but then she called someone on the phone and was like "i dont really care if she blocked me u know its like whatever its just weird suddenly haha" like can u stfu ur so bitter

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:
im so sorry to hear that, is there any possibility of you moving out of your current household? and about your friends, im sorry to hear that, do you have any special interest or something? i feel like focusing on that often leads to new relationships and new possibilities

unfortunately i can't move out! its bc many reasons
and also the apartments where I live are OVERPRICED AS FUCK id have to already have a stable income and all that.. im just patiently waiting

and yea !! i am trying to be active in online communities in stuff im interested in like art, anime etc but there r also many people who r.. v weird? like i met really crazy people who hacked my accounts and all that crazy stuff u know !

aah i understand tbh, its honestly not easy to find something cheap. im sure your patience will pay off, and im rooting for u ! which country are you from - if its ok i ask ofc

oof i feel you, some anime fans keep me away from a lot of anime/art interested communties. i feel like its often very toxic, weird and.. well.. sexual. and i aint about that. that sounds awful wth?? i hope you dont experience stuff like that anymore

omg thats fine !! im from germany ! germany is v bad in general when it comes to apartments and work and since im arabic/ brown and muslim its even harder to find work bc theres an underlying systematic racism going on.... its v bad honestly and really upsetting but our government is not acknowledging that racism and ugh.. its really awful : //

yeah exactly !! so many of them r toxic and even manipulative when ur good friends ?? and many of them just start being weirdly sexual
like im totally fine with being playfully sexual and joking abt it but i had a guy send me dickpics of his tiny dick and send me voice message of him moaning my name and shit its so weird

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Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:
unfortunately i can't move out! its bc many reasons
and also the apartments where I live are OVERPRICED AS FUCK id have to already have a stable income and all that.. im just patiently waiting

and yea !! i am trying to be active in online communities in stuff im interested in like art, anime etc but there r also many people who r.. v weird? like i met really crazy people who hacked my accounts and all that crazy stuff u know !

aah i understand tbh, its honestly not easy to find something cheap. im sure your patience will pay off, and im rooting for u ! which country are you from - if its ok i ask ofc

oof i feel you, some anime fans keep me away from a lot of anime/art interested communties. i feel like its often very toxic, weird and.. well.. sexual. and i aint about that. that sounds awful wth?? i hope you dont experience stuff like that anymore

omg thats fine !! im from germany ! germany is v bad in general when it comes to apartments and work and since im arabic/ brown and muslim its even harder to find work bc theres an underlying systematic racism going on.... its v bad honestly and really upsetting but our government is not acknowledging that racism and ugh.. its really awful : //

yeah exactly !! so many of them r toxic and even manipulative when ur good friends ?? and many of them just start being weirdly sexual
like im totally fine with being playfully sexual and joking abt it but i had a guy send me dickpics of his tiny dick and send me voice message of him moaning my name and shit its so weird

im so sorry to hear that, i feel like a lot of countries have racism going around that their governments wont really adress? i'm white and live in denmark, but its not unusual to see people tear down people of color here either despite them doing.. literally nothing wrong and just living. i really hope that things will get better, and i hope you will find a good job!!
yuck, thats disgusting. i will never get hot some people think its ok to send random dickpics ?? who wanna see their tiny noodle dicks? not me
do you use myanimelist or something like that, i feel like people are rlly weird there too but.. its good to keep up to date on stuff at least

Hajime
National Star

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:
aah i understand tbh, its honestly not easy to find something cheap. im sure your patience will pay off, and im rooting for u ! which country are you from - if its ok i ask ofc

oof i feel you, some anime fans keep me away from a lot of anime/art interested communties. i feel like its often very toxic, weird and.. well.. sexual. and i aint about that. that sounds awful wth?? i hope you dont experience stuff like that anymore

omg thats fine !! im from germany ! germany is v bad in general when it comes to apartments and work and since im arabic/ brown and muslim its even harder to find work bc theres an underlying systematic racism going on.... its v bad honestly and really upsetting but our government is not acknowledging that racism and ugh.. its really awful : //

yeah exactly !! so many of them r toxic and even manipulative when ur good friends ?? and many of them just start being weirdly sexual
like im totally fine with being playfully sexual and joking abt it but i had a guy send me dickpics of his tiny dick and send me voice message of him moaning my name and shit its so weird

im so sorry to hear that, i feel like a lot of countries have racism going around that their governments wont really adress? i'm white and live in denmark, but its not unusual to see people tear down people of color here either despite them doing.. literally nothing wrong and just living. i really hope that things will get better, and i hope you will find a good job!!
yuck, thats disgusting. i will never get hot some people think its ok to send random dickpics ?? who wanna see their tiny noodle dicks? not me
do you use myanimelist or something like that, i feel like people are rlly weird there too but.. its good to keep up to date on stuff at least

thank you and I hope so too!! i feel like the new generation is WAYY more accepting regarding nationatlity, religion, sexuality and just.. everything ?? so i really am having hope !!

AND YEAH LIKE HIS DICK WAS TO TINYYY AND HE WAS SO... UNATTRACTIVE AND SOO WEIRD LIKE UGHHH HE WAS A PAIN

and ooh! i actually was abt to make an acc just to keep up to date with the anime i already watched IHASIFHAS i didnt even know u could talk to others there but thanks for warning me !!

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I'm sorry you have been feeling shitty lately, I hope things start to look up for you soon <3
Please remember not to swear in forum titles (I just left it out cuz I didn't know what to put, you can change it to what you like)

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:

Photosynthesis wrote:
I'm sorry you have been feeling shitty lately, I hope things start to look up for you soon <3
Please remember not to swear in forum titles (I just left it out cuz I didn't know what to put, you can change it to what you like)

thank you so much,, ;;--;;
and AA i didn't know my bad !! and thank u and i apologize

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Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:
omg thats fine !! im from germany ! germany is v bad in general when it comes to apartments and work and since im arabic/ brown and muslim its even harder to find work bc theres an underlying systematic racism going on.... its v bad honestly and really upsetting but our government is not acknowledging that racism and ugh.. its really awful : //

yeah exactly !! so many of them r toxic and even manipulative when ur good friends ?? and many of them just start being weirdly sexual
like im totally fine with being playfully sexual and joking abt it but i had a guy send me dickpics of his tiny dick and send me voice message of him moaning my name and shit its so weird

im so sorry to hear that, i feel like a lot of countries have racism going around that their governments wont really adress? i'm white and live in denmark, but its not unusual to see people tear down people of color here either despite them doing.. literally nothing wrong and just living. i really hope that things will get better, and i hope you will find a good job!!
yuck, thats disgusting. i will never get hot some people think its ok to send random dickpics ?? who wanna see their tiny noodle dicks? not me
do you use myanimelist or something like that, i feel like people are rlly weird there too but.. its good to keep up to date on stuff at least

thank you and I hope so too!! i feel like the new generation is WAYY more accepting regarding nationatlity, religion, sexuality and just.. everything ?? so i really am having hope !!

AND YEAH LIKE HIS DICK WAS TO TINYYY AND HE WAS SO... UNATTRACTIVE AND SOO WEIRD LIKE UGHHH HE WAS A PAIN

and ooh! i actually was abt to make an acc just to keep up to date with the anime i already watched IHASIFHAS i didnt even know u could talk to others there but thanks for warning me !!

yeah i agree !!!! i feel like we really get to see that with all the black lives matter protests atm, so many young people are doing so much for other people right now. and also with this whole covid thing, i feel like a lot of young people are doing a lot more than .. welp.. the older generations lmao.
omg............. he must have a lot of confidence to just <333 send pics when he be looking like that lmao
theres a ton of forums n stuff but no private chat !!! so you can avoid a lot of stuff luckily!! if you make an account feel free to add me if you wanna <3 im aqeha on there

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Emiliaaaaaaa wrote:
its really sad that u feel like that. i hope u will be happy one day.don't waste time on worng people, do things thats make u happy. people will be Always mean even on thehappiest day ever, people will still be mean and put you down. sometimes i really feel "what happens if i just was gone, like no one would even really care" i feel like that often. people can be really mean to me and sayin many racist things to me. i Always getting sad and Crying at home and i don't deserve to live.
i hope u find the peace u want one day. stay strong and love yourself.

Hajime
National Star

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:

Hajime wrote:

Flamink wrote:
im so sorry to hear that, i feel like a lot of countries have racism going around that their governments wont really adress? i'm white and live in denmark, but its not unusual to see people tear down people of color here either despite them doing.. literally nothing wrong and just living. i really hope that things will get better, and i hope you will find a good job!!
yuck, thats disgusting. i will never get hot some people think its ok to send random dickpics ?? who wanna see their tiny noodle dicks? not me
do you use myanimelist or something like that, i feel like people are rlly weird there too but.. its good to keep up to date on stuff at least

thank you and I hope so too!! i feel like the new generation is WAYY more accepting regarding nationatlity, religion, sexuality and just.. everything ?? so i really am having hope !!

AND YEAH LIKE HIS DICK WAS TO TINYYY AND HE WAS SO... UNATTRACTIVE AND SOO WEIRD LIKE UGHHH HE WAS A PAIN

and ooh! i actually was abt to make an acc just to keep up to date with the anime i already watched IHASIFHAS i didnt even know u could talk to others there but thanks for warning me !!

yeah i agree !!!! i feel like we really get to see that with all the black lives matter protests atm, so many young people are doing so much for other people right now. and also with this whole covid thing, i feel like a lot of young people are doing a lot more than .. welp.. the older generations lmao.
omg............. he must have a lot of confidence to just <333 send pics when he be looking like that lmao
theres a ton of forums n stuff but no private chat !!! so you can avoid a lot of stuff luckily!! if you make an account feel free to add me if you wanna <3 im aqeha on there

yeah!! like i really dont get the older generation but there are slowly ~passing away~ so good for us.. they are so ignorant and the way they think is ICKY especially how most trump supporters r old and white and like ?? UR REALLY SUPPORTING SOMEONE LIKE THAT AND ?? R PROUD OF IT??

yEAH ASIUFASFG YIKES he said it turned him on when he talked like that to ~friends~ but waited for me to turn 18 to tell me he has a crush on me so like.. yikes
and yes !! i just noticed i had an account IUHASUFH LET ME SEE HOW I CAN ADD U

Hajime
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Hajime wrote:

Emiliaaaaaaa wrote:
its really sad that u feel like that. i hope u will be happy one day.don't waste time on worng people, do things thats make u happy. people will be Always mean even on thehappiest day ever, people will still be mean and put you down. sometimes i really feel "what happens if i just was gone, like no one would even really care" i feel like that often. people can be really mean to me and sayin many racist things to me. i Always getting sad and Crying at home and i don't deserve to live.
i hope u find the peace u want one day. stay strong and love yourself.

im really sorry u feel that way, i relate to that a LOT
i feel like when i would be gone forever it wouldnt change anything

i really HATE racists they dont understand how much damage they do to one !! just remember ur better and not living such a bitter life like them

and u too <3 thank u sm