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Bloodflowers wrote:
So it all started off great I was productive, cleaning, laughing hysterically, wrote a song and making gifts for my friend and tricking her into meeting me.
I had found god and was full of love.
Decided to go on a night walk. Went the wrong way. Walked back because I was going to the lake because the water is the connection to the other side and here god will speak to me from the water because I have opened my heart to him. I was in an alternate universe where there was only me and nothing was actually real. I was there to fullfill a task, like in a dream.
Walked past a glowing sign that said 16 7. I was like omg this is a sign I’m heading to 16 7 I will see this number at my destination he knows I’m coming.
Went the entire way looking out for 16 7.
Could have gotten in trouble because some creepy guys I at first thought they weren’t real? until I saw them. I got past them and it was a test to see if I would do anything to get to my destination.
Arrived at the lake. Sat there for so long until the wind whispered my birth name not my current name. Freaky. But it felt sinister and I was cold and I saw a hare and I started walking back.
Walked in the road and heard a car speeding towards me. Turned around, nothing there. Kept walking and heard a car speeding towards me. Turned around and nothing there. Kept walking and again heard a car speeding towards me I thought fucking hit me then ghost car.
Came back home after 2h because I was completely disoriented and kept walking the wrong way.
Slept about 30 min. My skin is one itch away from bursting.
I woke up and then I heard someone putting their key in the lock of the apartment, turning it and putting their hand on the door. But there was no one there thank god the apartment is super dirty.
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Went to church and on the way there I had this feeling like a panic attack when I was outside the church. It was overwhelming and powerful but it was god preparing me for what was about to come, embracing him into my life.
God spoke to me through the priest. He looked directly at me and said “God forgives you for not loving your friends enough and god forgives you for not loving yourself enough.”.
I remember that first song I felt this wave of calmness washing over me and it was god accepting me.
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I met up with a friend and I told her about this religious experience and 16 7. I had bought myself a cross necklace and I had bought her a heart necklace.
We ate and I felt so restless, constantly tapping my feet on the floor. I didn’t even finish my meal and there was this old man on a table close to us who kept staring at my feet. I joked he had a foot fetish but he got so annoyed he left with his glass of wine to drink it outside. We were trying to figure out what 16 7 could mean but didn’t reach a conclusion.
Then we went to a bar and we drank and had a good time until we met a guy who asked a lot of inappropriate questions to my friend. I told him off.
We met another guy who was older than us and just chatted a bit and continued to have a good time, he seemed nice. A good while in I saw it. I saw 16 7 on an electronic thing on the wall and I got the same feeling as seeing it on my night walk.
This is where I start to lose my memory but I remember standing on the couch pressing the buttons knowing this is the sign this is 16 7 it says 16 7 on this thing and in the background the guy being like is she ok.
My next memory is being outside of the bar probably looking chaotic asking no one in particular what was supposed to happen now because this is the sign.
I remember the guy saying something like “I got kicked out” and I asked my friend did we get kicked out? Appariently I had left the bar saying I needed a smoke. Unclear if he got kicked out or not but I mean I don’t remember leaving even though I had appariently just done it.
My next memory after that is seeing the guy who had asked my friend inappropriate questions coming out of the bar. I ran up to him and punched him in the face because he came out at the right(/wrong) time when I had recieved the sign so clearly it was about him.
The memory after that is physically being held back by the nice guy while the friend of the annoying guy screamed at me. But everyone had changed places and the guy was much further away and we were all in the opposite of where we were so idk teleporting ig bc I also do not remember that.
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I remember they weren’t there anymore (don’t remember them leaving or if the argument was in some way solved) and I was so zoned out because I was all wtf I can’t remember what i did 3min ago and god is giving me this weird religious experience etc. and the guy being like wtf is happening I recognize this she’s a drug addict (lol) but then being like what’s her diagnosis. Actually maybe this happened before I punched the guy? I don’t know. I remember him trying to talk to me and like hugging me and someone stroking my back and my friend held my hand. But I only heard half of what was said (if even that) and I was just staring into the void feeling ??god’s power??. Trying to get me to look at him but I was just swallowed in the void shit was weird.
The guy eventually got me and my friend in a taxi home which he paid for and I’m forever thankful honestly because now after I’m not sure I would have made it home lol. I know I told him about what god have showed me to do and I at least thanked him for the taxi but probably left him very confused lmao. My friend cried and I had a moment of clarity in the taxi. So I came home and had barely slept for a good while and I still couldn’t sleep I think of my friend crying while drugging myself with antipsychotics.
What an experience!
- sincerely, an atheist
So moral of the story there are actual good people who sincerely want to help aside from those who just stand and stare while whispering to their friend. Never met this guy before but he actually paid for a taxi ride that wasn’t cheap and tried to de-escalate what felt like a chaotic situation. Also that religion is not my friend.
So it all started off great I was productive, cleaning, laughing hysterically, wrote a song and making gifts for my friend and tricking her into meeting me.
I had found god and was full of love.
Decided to go on a night walk. Went the wrong way. Walked back because I was going to the lake because the water is the connection to the other side and here god will speak to me from the water because I have opened my heart to him. I was in an alternate universe where there was only me and nothing was actually real. I was there to fullfill a task, like in a dream.
Walked past a glowing sign that said 16 7. I was like omg this is a sign I’m heading to 16 7 I will see this number at my destination he knows I’m coming.
Went the entire way looking out for 16 7.
Could have gotten in trouble because some creepy guys I at first thought they weren’t real? until I saw them. I got past them and it was a test to see if I would do anything to get to my destination.
Arrived at the lake. Sat there for so long until the wind whispered my birth name not my current name. Freaky. But it felt sinister and I was cold and I saw a hare and I started walking back.
Walked in the road and heard a car speeding towards me. Turned around, nothing there. Kept walking and heard a car speeding towards me. Turned around and nothing there. Kept walking and again heard a car speeding towards me I thought fucking hit me then ghost car.
Came back home after 2h because I was completely disoriented and kept walking the wrong way.
Slept about 30 min. My skin is one itch away from bursting.
I woke up and then I heard someone putting their key in the lock of the apartment, turning it and putting their hand on the door. But there was no one there thank god the apartment is super dirty.
____
Went to church and on the way there I had this feeling like a panic attack when I was outside the church. It was overwhelming and powerful but it was god preparing me for what was about to come, embracing him into my life.
God spoke to me through the priest. He looked directly at me and said “God forgives you for not loving your friends enough and god forgives you for not loving yourself enough.”.
I remember that first song I felt this wave of calmness washing over me and it was god accepting me.
____
I met up with a friend and I told her about this religious experience and 16 7. I had bought myself a cross necklace and I had bought her a heart necklace.
We ate and I felt so restless, constantly tapping my feet on the floor. I didn’t even finish my meal and there was this old man on a table close to us who kept staring at my feet. I joked he had a foot fetish but he got so annoyed he left with his glass of wine to drink it outside. We were trying to figure out what 16 7 could mean but didn’t reach a conclusion.
Then we went to a bar and we drank and had a good time until we met a guy who asked a lot of inappropriate questions to my friend. I told him off.
We met another guy who was older than us and just chatted a bit and continued to have a good time, he seemed nice. A good while in I saw it. I saw 16 7 on an electronic thing on the wall and I got the same feeling as seeing it on my night walk.
This is where I start to lose my memory but I remember standing on the couch pressing the buttons knowing this is the sign this is 16 7 it says 16 7 on this thing and in the background the guy being like is she ok.
My next memory is being outside of the bar probably looking chaotic asking no one in particular what was supposed to happen now because this is the sign.
I remember the guy saying something like “I got kicked out” and I asked my friend did we get kicked out? Appariently I had left the bar saying I needed a smoke. Unclear if he got kicked out or not but I mean I don’t remember leaving even though I had appariently just done it.
My next memory after that is seeing the guy who had asked my friend inappropriate questions coming out of the bar. I ran up to him and punched him in the face because he came out at the right(/wrong) time when I had recieved the sign so clearly it was about him.
The memory after that is physically being held back by the nice guy while the friend of the annoying guy screamed at me. But everyone had changed places and the guy was much further away and we were all in the opposite of where we were so idk teleporting ig bc I also do not remember that.
.
I remember they weren’t there anymore (don’t remember them leaving or if the argument was in some way solved) and I was so zoned out because I was all wtf I can’t remember what i did 3min ago and god is giving me this weird religious experience etc. and the guy being like wtf is happening I recognize this she’s a drug addict (lol) but then being like what’s her diagnosis. Actually maybe this happened before I punched the guy? I don’t know. I remember him trying to talk to me and like hugging me and someone stroking my back and my friend held my hand. But I only heard half of what was said (if even that) and I was just staring into the void feeling ??god’s power??. Trying to get me to look at him but I was just swallowed in the void shit was weird.
The guy eventually got me and my friend in a taxi home which he paid for and I’m forever thankful honestly because now after I’m not sure I would have made it home lol. I know I told him about what god have showed me to do and I at least thanked him for the taxi but probably left him very confused lmao. My friend cried and I had a moment of clarity in the taxi. So I came home and had barely slept for a good while and I still couldn’t sleep I think of my friend crying while drugging myself with antipsychotics.
What an experience!
- sincerely, an atheist
So moral of the story there are actual good people who sincerely want to help aside from those who just stand and stare while whispering to their friend. Never met this guy before but he actually paid for a taxi ride that wasn’t cheap and tried to de-escalate what felt like a chaotic situation. Also that religion is not my friend.
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