Bloodflowers wrote:
my only ex boyfriend texted me yesterday. as he does every once in a while and I always tell him fuck you.
Very short backstory:
We dated when I was a teen but he was manipulative, kept dumping me and taking me back like once a month and talked shit abt me to everyone, used me for sex nd he slapped me once but i slapped him so i mean, the list goes on forever
He's like i don't get why you're like this to me all that was years ago I'm a changed person I'm like lmao sure.
BUT it was years ago, he doesn't know me anymore. And I've realised I'm not that pathethic little girl I was before who let myself get used so if I keep being that nice person I am who belives everyone is good deep down then i've really got nothing to lose because he can't hurt me anymore because I put myself before pleasing everyone else now.
We are meeting at a bar next weekend it sure is going to be interesting.
However he is already giving me warning signs he has "changed" lol sure
He keept being like idk where I'm going to go after the bar can't I sleep at your place. And even after I'm like alright we'll do saturday day and look like alcoholics he's still like "its funny my friend said he could give me a ride after if i slept at your place"
And WHAT IT MEANS is that he wants to have sex because I still know all his little gross tricks its not about just sleeping. Also the last time we did meet he did all of this said he has changed, came home to me made me sleep with him then texted me the next day like "it felt weird i don't think i want to keep seeing you" and i was like hehe tf
ALSO
after i did not agree to letting him sleep at "my" place he started being like idk if the meetup is gonna happen my dad wanted to go out with the boat but it should work.
BECAUSE he wants me to be like no please ok u can sleep here. and beg for his attention.
so
i am not convinced he isn't just the same but i am not the same and i've realised i've stayed away from him all theseyears no matter how many times he writes because im afraid he's going to make me feel gross and worthless and unwanted but he doesn't have that kind of power over me now and if he truly has changed maybe we can be friends because i am forgiving.
if he hasn't changed then i guess his loss
my only ex boyfriend texted me yesterday. as he does every once in a while and I always tell him fuck you.
Very short backstory:
We dated when I was a teen but he was manipulative, kept dumping me and taking me back like once a month and talked shit abt me to everyone, used me for sex nd he slapped me once but i slapped him so i mean, the list goes on forever
He's like i don't get why you're like this to me all that was years ago I'm a changed person I'm like lmao sure.
BUT it was years ago, he doesn't know me anymore. And I've realised I'm not that pathethic little girl I was before who let myself get used so if I keep being that nice person I am who belives everyone is good deep down then i've really got nothing to lose because he can't hurt me anymore because I put myself before pleasing everyone else now.
We are meeting at a bar next weekend it sure is going to be interesting.
However he is already giving me warning signs he has "changed" lol sure
He keept being like idk where I'm going to go after the bar can't I sleep at your place. And even after I'm like alright we'll do saturday day and look like alcoholics he's still like "its funny my friend said he could give me a ride after if i slept at your place"
And WHAT IT MEANS is that he wants to have sex because I still know all his little gross tricks its not about just sleeping. Also the last time we did meet he did all of this said he has changed, came home to me made me sleep with him then texted me the next day like "it felt weird i don't think i want to keep seeing you" and i was like hehe tf
ALSO
after i did not agree to letting him sleep at "my" place he started being like idk if the meetup is gonna happen my dad wanted to go out with the boat but it should work.
BECAUSE he wants me to be like no please ok u can sleep here. and beg for his attention.
so
i am not convinced he isn't just the same but i am not the same and i've realised i've stayed away from him all theseyears no matter how many times he writes because im afraid he's going to make me feel gross and worthless and unwanted but he doesn't have that kind of power over me now and if he truly has changed maybe we can be friends because i am forgiving.
if he hasn't changed then i guess his loss