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Bloodflowers wrote:
i've got to be honest i always reach this point
ive been through the shittiest of shits in my life
the stuff that is not socially accepted to speak of to anyone
that would make nearly anyone go running
and now that ive made it out the other side or whatever and im a functioning member of society that no one is out to sabotage
i hate it here, i don't know what to do with myself
i have no problems to complain about that's the issue and i don't get to be angry at the world anymore because ive got no reason to die or to be scared or to feel get everything taken from me or to sleep with my clothes on or to put furniture in front of my door
pity party is over it's been shit and i was alone most of the time
now im supposed to make more friends and smile and make plans and pretend i dont want to suffer
its kind of that feeling like when you move out from your parents home and that first night alone its all quiet and you sit there alone thinking wtf this is great but it also really sucks
I would like to lose control and I would like to live up to my reputation and i want to be fighting something and i want there to be voices coming from the rain but everything is just normal and im just normal and i liked it when i had a purpose when i was fighting for my right to myself now im just thinking about bills and all the times people have looked at me as if im crazy and all the times ive done something stupid.
Someone told me they liked me as I was because they'd never be bored and I always thought that was a really awful thing to say but i totally get it because im bored now
i've got to be honest i always reach this point
ive been through the shittiest of shits in my life
the stuff that is not socially accepted to speak of to anyone
that would make nearly anyone go running
and now that ive made it out the other side or whatever and im a functioning member of society that no one is out to sabotage
i hate it here, i don't know what to do with myself
i have no problems to complain about that's the issue and i don't get to be angry at the world anymore because ive got no reason to die or to be scared or to feel get everything taken from me or to sleep with my clothes on or to put furniture in front of my door
pity party is over it's been shit and i was alone most of the time
now im supposed to make more friends and smile and make plans and pretend i dont want to suffer
its kind of that feeling like when you move out from your parents home and that first night alone its all quiet and you sit there alone thinking wtf this is great but it also really sucks
I would like to lose control and I would like to live up to my reputation and i want to be fighting something and i want there to be voices coming from the rain but everything is just normal and im just normal and i liked it when i had a purpose when i was fighting for my right to myself now im just thinking about bills and all the times people have looked at me as if im crazy and all the times ive done something stupid.
Someone told me they liked me as I was because they'd never be bored and I always thought that was a really awful thing to say but i totally get it because im bored now
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