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Bloodflowers wrote:
i feel completely undeserving of a job, of an apartment, money, a stable brain with no issues
and whenever i get those things i'm like nope
this is not me this is not my life
this is me living in someone else's shoes
it's like if you've always been super poor and you won the lottery and now you're one of the super rich people
it feels fake and it doesn't feel genuine
Whenever I get any of these things I fantasize about going back and getting rid of them
and I always sound depressed making these rants which is why people describe my personality as "depressed" which is super rude but ok
but im very decent and happy rn and that is the problem
having a job is not meant to be for me
having a nice brain is not meant to be for me
and when i get an apartment, that's not meant for me either
and it doesn't matter how many years i fought for these things or fought for my right to decide over my life, i'm wobbling under the pressure of switching lives
gross
i feel completely undeserving of a job, of an apartment, money, a stable brain with no issues
and whenever i get those things i'm like nope
this is not me this is not my life
this is me living in someone else's shoes
it's like if you've always been super poor and you won the lottery and now you're one of the super rich people
it feels fake and it doesn't feel genuine
Whenever I get any of these things I fantasize about going back and getting rid of them
and I always sound depressed making these rants which is why people describe my personality as "depressed" which is super rude but ok
but im very decent and happy rn and that is the problem
having a job is not meant to be for me
having a nice brain is not meant to be for me
and when i get an apartment, that's not meant for me either
and it doesn't matter how many years i fought for these things or fought for my right to decide over my life, i'm wobbling under the pressure of switching lives
gross
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