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Idk, starting to get night creativity so just felt like writing down my life in a rough sketch.
Ok early childhood.
Dad died when I was 7.
Deep depression and thoughts of suicide.
Beaten at home and abused verbally.
Doesn't go to school.
Realize I need to finish school to get on in life. Proceed to do 3 years in 1/2 year.
Get into an ok school and moves to it's boarding-school-apartments-thing.
Life starts to get a little better.
Meets 24yo guy online (I was 16 at the time).
Travels to guy after knowing him for 3 months.
He starts negging me into losing weight. I develop an eating disorder.
I quit school cause I feel like I need to spend all my time trying to please the guy.
I spent almost a year in bed not having energy to do anything.
I start at a distance school.
The guy cheats on me and we break up.
I meet another guy who treats me better.
My life feels good for almost a year until I realize I don't actually love him in that way so I break up.
I get a goodbye text from him so I call the police who find him ready to jump infront of a train.
My school/education is suffering cause all my time goes to making him feel better while still trying to not get dragged down too.
I travel to his city to get him into a mental hospital. His friends tell me to never contact him again since it's all my fault.
I start dating again and my school gets a little better.
I have gained a healthy amount of weight and feel confident in myself.
I start sleeping around to not get too attached to someone again.
My entire life at this point (about 18yo) is sex and school.
I start to date people once again and this guy that I've been dating a while tells me he wants to go on a trip with me. We go there, go out drinking where he gets me drunk (pretty sure he drugged me) and rapes me in a club.
I cut out all toxic people in my life and focus on myself.
I start talking to someone that becomes my turning point. We eventually spend 5 days together; drinking wine, smoking weed, watching movies and talk.
One week later I meet a guy that makes me feel good in myself, don't take me for granted, supports every choice I make and just wants me well. The guy I'm still dating.
I start doing hobbies I haven't done in years, workout and take care of myself.
Currently; school is going good, I have dreams for my future and I feel loved by the friends I have in my life. My family is still extremely toxic but I'm working on moving out as soon as I can.
Edit; I Really just wanna say thank you to all of you that commented. I know it's not really interesting to hear about the problems from a stranger but it felt really good to vent and to just know that someone read it feels even better. It kinda makes it feel like I haven't over-reacted to things that have happened in my life
Ok early childhood.
Dad died when I was 7.
Deep depression and thoughts of suicide.
Beaten at home and abused verbally.
Doesn't go to school.
Realize I need to finish school to get on in life. Proceed to do 3 years in 1/2 year.
Get into an ok school and moves to it's boarding-school-apartments-thing.
Life starts to get a little better.
Meets 24yo guy online (I was 16 at the time).
Travels to guy after knowing him for 3 months.
He starts negging me into losing weight. I develop an eating disorder.
I quit school cause I feel like I need to spend all my time trying to please the guy.
I spent almost a year in bed not having energy to do anything.
I start at a distance school.
The guy cheats on me and we break up.
I meet another guy who treats me better.
My life feels good for almost a year until I realize I don't actually love him in that way so I break up.
I get a goodbye text from him so I call the police who find him ready to jump infront of a train.
My school/education is suffering cause all my time goes to making him feel better while still trying to not get dragged down too.
I travel to his city to get him into a mental hospital. His friends tell me to never contact him again since it's all my fault.
I start dating again and my school gets a little better.
I have gained a healthy amount of weight and feel confident in myself.
I start sleeping around to not get too attached to someone again.
My entire life at this point (about 18yo) is sex and school.
I start to date people once again and this guy that I've been dating a while tells me he wants to go on a trip with me. We go there, go out drinking where he gets me drunk (pretty sure he drugged me) and rapes me in a club.
I cut out all toxic people in my life and focus on myself.
I start talking to someone that becomes my turning point. We eventually spend 5 days together; drinking wine, smoking weed, watching movies and talk.
One week later I meet a guy that makes me feel good in myself, don't take me for granted, supports every choice I make and just wants me well. The guy I'm still dating.
I start doing hobbies I haven't done in years, workout and take care of myself.
Currently; school is going good, I have dreams for my future and I feel loved by the friends I have in my life. My family is still extremely toxic but I'm working on moving out as soon as I can.
Edit; I Really just wanna say thank you to all of you that commented. I know it's not really interesting to hear about the problems from a stranger but it felt really good to vent and to just know that someone read it feels even better. It kinda makes it feel like I haven't over-reacted to things that have happened in my life
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