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I keep falling out of my regular thought pattern n then I do smth I would NEVER normally do but ion feel like im there rlly anyway n then when I think back on it im like wtf ??? What ? ,? How did I think to act like that

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German dude literally asked me if I hav DID n I just no fam 😭😭 I can't b that fucking unaware im not acting THAT weird, im def still me but someone put the thought or action or emotion into me but they made sure im still me

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I just realized I might have revealed to the person that I know what they r doing if they r on vp but it is fine indeed, if im dead u know who did it #yes lol

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have u pissed off a witch lately

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have u pissed off a witch lately

this came in my mind too

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BrainFilth wrote:
have u pissed off a witch lately

No n whitches r stupid not real beings

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ok fr it's not appropriate to bring magic into stuff like this at all lol
ok i'm gonna get serious for a sec
idk u but that could be multiple things such as if u have had a traumatic experience or have depression, anxiety, or a personality disorder that could b plain ol dissociation (u can dissociate w/o did or osdd if ur not familiar w it). did & osdd r also hard for the ppl who have it to recognize they have it bc ur brain blocks that out & puts u into denial about having it bc that would mean accepting heavy trauma. (not saying u do ofc but that's a really common misconception cuz like NO ONE understands systems at all)
but there's also a thing called thought insertation where u believe ur thoughts r being put into ur head by someone else
if u wanna talk about mental health stuff like just vent i can listen & give input. i'm not a professional & won't dx u or tell u i know what ur going through but i can provide resources from one mentally ill bitch to another 😔✌️ hope ur doing ok

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have u pissed off a witch lately

ima quote this actually if someone is talking about smn mental health related do not ever say shit like this idc if it's ur beliefs i respect that but this is not ok

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ok fr it's not appropriate to bring magic into stuff like this at all lol
ok i'm gonna get serious for a sec
idk u but that could be multiple things such as if u have had a traumatic experience or have depression, anxiety, or a personality disorder that could b plain ol dissociation (u can dissociate w/o did or osdd if ur not familiar w it). did & osdd r also hard for the ppl who have it to recognize they have it bc ur brain blocks that out & puts u into denial about having it bc that would mean accepting heavy trauma. (not saying u do ofc but that's a really common misconception cuz like NO ONE understands systems at all)
but there's also a thing called thought insertation where u believe ur thoughts r being put into ur head by someone else
if u wanna talk about mental health stuff like just vent i can listen & give input. i'm not a professional & won't dx u or tell u i know what ur going through but i can provide resources from one mentally ill bitch to another 😔✌️ hope ur doing ok

Idk the only disorders I allegedly have is schizoid n antisocial but idk if those r rlly the most uhh,, dissociative disorders lol. But anyways yes I do dissociate on the regular but not rlly uhhh,, like popping out of reality that much I think, more like just im in a bubble n nothing around me is real type of deal idk. Spectator of my own life. Lmfao that sounds emo af. And involuntary age regression when I get triggered of stuff which was why the dude wondered if I had did in the first place but its not rlly uhh,, im still me n im still aware of whats happening but I just do things n I can't suppress it very well idk

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Idk, the distinction of thought insertion, between ones own thoughts and the thoughts thats being inserted, its quite peculiar cus I always hav redfered to me n my brain as two seperate beings lol n my brain has one thought n I have another. My brain insterting thoughts into me confirmed lmfao

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jerboa wrote:
ok fr it's not appropriate to bring magic into stuff like this at all lol
ok i'm gonna get serious for a sec
idk u but that could be multiple things such as if u have had a traumatic experience or have depression, anxiety, or a personality disorder that could b plain ol dissociation (u can dissociate w/o did or osdd if ur not familiar w it). did & osdd r also hard for the ppl who have it to recognize they have it bc ur brain blocks that out & puts u into denial about having it bc that would mean accepting heavy trauma. (not saying u do ofc but that's a really common misconception cuz like NO ONE understands systems at all)
but there's also a thing called thought insertation where u believe ur thoughts r being put into ur head by someone else
if u wanna talk about mental health stuff like just vent i can listen & give input. i'm not a professional & won't dx u or tell u i know what ur going through but i can provide resources from one mentally ill bitch to another 😔✌️ hope ur doing ok

Idk the only disorders I allegedly have is schizoid n antisocial but idk if those r rlly the most uhh,, dissociative disorders lol. But anyways yes I do dissociate on the regular but not rlly uhhh,, like popping out of reality that much I think, more like just im in a bubble n nothing around me is real type of deal idk. Spectator of my own life. Lmfao that sounds emo af. And involuntary age regression when I get triggered of stuff which was why the dude wondered if I had did in the first place but its not rlly uhh,, im still me n im still aware of whats happening but I just do things n I can't suppress it very well idk

i think u should check out this doc ik it says it's for did & osdd but it has resources for general dissociation, age regression, & ptsd too (as well as providing good descriptions of did/osdd which imo everyone should read but i'm biased on that subject)
idk that much about schizoid or antisocial but if u experience age regression that can be a form of dissociation (basically, dissociating from current reality into a younger age)
i experience a lot of that too that sounds 100% like dissociation. it doesn't sound emo, not feeling real, feeling floaty n stuff that's just the definition of dissociation. depersonalization-derealization disorder (dpdr) is a thing (tho if u ask me dissociation is a symptom of a disorder & not a disorder itself)
tho i can't speak much on dissociating w/o being a system i have osdd if u wanna ask about it ✌️ w osdd-1b u don't get blackouts or anything just a real awful memory. or usually imo the distinction between osdd/did rly isn't as much as ppl think and i believe osdd-1 is just a different way did can present itself but that's another topic for another day
it prolly made em ask about did cuz they can talk to u like that & sometimes it's hard to tell if it's u or not. but ur thoughts can just feel like Not Yours from dissociation without being a system
the doc i linked has some explanations about that w dissociation in personality disorders vs. ptsd vs. did/osdd i think

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oh yeah w thought inserting it's a type of delusion (ex. this person/organization is putting thoughts into my mind). i used to think i had that. both can exist at once too (like ur brain trying to find an explanation for heavy dissociation)

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BrainFilth wrote:
have u pissed off a witch lately

yes. we dont talk about it though,

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jerboa wrote:

ouch wrote:

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ok fr it's not appropriate to bring magic into stuff like this at all lol
ok i'm gonna get serious for a sec
idk u but that could be multiple things such as if u have had a traumatic experience or have depression, anxiety, or a personality disorder that could b plain ol dissociation (u can dissociate w/o did or osdd if ur not familiar w it). did & osdd r also hard for the ppl who have it to recognize they have it bc ur brain blocks that out & puts u into denial about having it bc that would mean accepting heavy trauma. (not saying u do ofc but that's a really common misconception cuz like NO ONE understands systems at all)
but there's also a thing called thought insertation where u believe ur thoughts r being put into ur head by someone else
if u wanna talk about mental health stuff like just vent i can listen & give input. i'm not a professional & won't dx u or tell u i know what ur going through but i can provide resources from one mentally ill bitch to another 😔✌️ hope ur doing ok

Idk the only disorders I allegedly have is schizoid n antisocial but idk if those r rlly the most uhh,, dissociative disorders lol. But anyways yes I do dissociate on the regular but not rlly uhhh,, like popping out of reality that much I think, more like just im in a bubble n nothing around me is real type of deal idk. Spectator of my own life. Lmfao that sounds emo af. And involuntary age regression when I get triggered of stuff which was why the dude wondered if I had did in the first place but its not rlly uhh,, im still me n im still aware of whats happening but I just do things n I can't suppress it very well idk

i think u should check out this doc ik it says it's for did & osdd but it has resources for general dissociation, age regression, & ptsd too (as well as providing good descriptions of did/osdd which imo everyone should read but i'm biased on that subject)
idk that much about schizoid or antisocial but if u experience age regression that can be a form of dissociation (basically, dissociating from current reality into a younger age)
i experience a lot of that too that sounds 100% like dissociation. it doesn't sound emo, not feeling real, feeling floaty n stuff that's just the definition of dissociation. depersonalization-derealization disorder (dpdr) is a thing (tho if u ask me dissociation is a symptom of a disorder & not a disorder itself)
tho i can't speak much on dissociating w/o being a system i have osdd if u wanna ask about it ✌️ w osdd-1b u don't get blackouts or anything just a real awful memory. or usually imo the distinction between osdd/did rly isn't as much as ppl think and i believe osdd-1 is just a different way did can present itself but that's another topic for another day
it prolly made em ask about did cuz they can talk to u like that & sometimes it's hard to tell if it's u or not. but ur thoughts can just feel like Not Yours from dissociation without being a system
the doc i linked has some explanations about that w dissociation in personality disorders vs. ptsd vs. did/osdd i think

Ill check it out. Also isn't the difference between did n osdd pretty much just u either have not fully developed alters (like they r a different version of u idk??) or that u don't experience black outs, depending on what type u have. Idk man

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oh yeah w thought inserting it's a type of delusion (ex. this person/organization is putting thoughts into my mind). i used to think i had that. both can exist at once too (like ur brain trying to find an explanation for heavy dissociation)

Me bein worried im turning schizo cus my aunt turned schizo around 20 or sum but probably not lmao, I think I am very much just overthinking it yes