kagura wrote:acidreflux wrote:
i'm a gnc dyke.Ā
thought i was a trans man, but i was a woman who hated being treated like a woman + i was in such a spiral of selfhatred and denial, it was easier for me to just ... not deal with it.
i'm a woman through and through. i just like not confirming to societies ideals of how women are supposed to look/act.
i think i had same kind of experience of that. because i never liked "girly" things when i was a kid. i was into videogames, football,i liked to dig up worm from dirt, i abolute refused to wear a dress etc... my bestfriend was a boy and never really get along with other girls in my class. or i did but i did not made friends with them
so needless to say, there's been that "that's not what you're supposed to do/like" pressing for my whole life
i think it's big part of why i felt i might be trans. when i told my big sister she was like "-.- like i didn't know since you were 3"
so yeah it be like that
imo it sounds like you were a tomboy who was treated like shit for being a tomboy and not a girly girl girl like society wanted you to be.