Private
Private
Private
0
0
0
0
To join the forums you need to be logged in.
Six wrote:
ya i dont want any of that boys r smelly stuff!!! i already know that!!
anyhow
a bit of backstory
my boyfriend and i have been friends for 5, going on 6 years. first year we were friends we both liked each other but it just didn't work out, lost contact ... he ended up getting a gf, he and i got back in contact and were just strictly platonic but his gf blocked me on his phone because she was a jealous biznatch and didn't like how awesomesauce i am. he ended up getting back in contact w me but i told him that if his gf wasn't okay with us talking i wasn't going to cockblock him and ruin his relationship. i kinda disappeared from the internet for a while and only returned to discord in january right before covid ... and we still had each other added, so we started talking again.
he and his gf of 2 yrs had broken up and so we stayed friends. he and i both kinda were seeing other people during this time and during the summer i took my japanese intensive and broke it off with the guy i was kinda talking to because he was too controlling for my time (which i had none). anyway bf and i started talking more and more and more and finally we both just decided we wanted to date because we didn't wanna stop talking if one of us dated someone lmao.
and that's how he and i got together, we have been "dating" since september but since we have NOT met in person he and i both decided not to make it official but everyone knwos we are bf/gf including my fam. i know him through a friend of mine who went to hs with him, and i have met that person irl even though i originally know him online. my brother is also friends with both of them (bf is younger than me, is my bro's age).
anyway
covid restrictions are lessening and my bro is allowed to see his gf, so my parents are basically saying that my bf can come down next month (lives 5 hrs north of me, california is massive). i am very very very very excited
but im also incredibly anxious about it. it's not like oh what if he doesn't like me, it's more just like my entire future is in front of me. like if he and i get along, we have such a good foundation that we could end up together forever. and don't say gala ur rushing it blah blah blah because yeah i know it sounds crazy but he and i are pretty serious about each other so it's like i'm looking at this from the lens that this could be my person. but also what if it doesn't work out! i guess u jusst move on but dang. i was telling him that being just online is very comforting because it's like ... degrees of separation ... but then........u gotta take the step.
im just nervous u guys. dont really need advice just need some reassurance. or just u read it and hope it helped ur bordeom for a little. he's like the best guy ever to me, ive been abused really badly in my past relationships and he's patient and kind and understanding and a great listener, and honestly my best friend. im just really nervous we wont like each other in person despite being the best of friends online.
ya i dont want any of that boys r smelly stuff!!! i already know that!!
anyhow
a bit of backstory
my boyfriend and i have been friends for 5, going on 6 years. first year we were friends we both liked each other but it just didn't work out, lost contact ... he ended up getting a gf, he and i got back in contact and were just strictly platonic but his gf blocked me on his phone because she was a jealous biznatch and didn't like how awesomesauce i am. he ended up getting back in contact w me but i told him that if his gf wasn't okay with us talking i wasn't going to cockblock him and ruin his relationship. i kinda disappeared from the internet for a while and only returned to discord in january right before covid ... and we still had each other added, so we started talking again.
he and his gf of 2 yrs had broken up and so we stayed friends. he and i both kinda were seeing other people during this time and during the summer i took my japanese intensive and broke it off with the guy i was kinda talking to because he was too controlling for my time (which i had none). anyway bf and i started talking more and more and more and finally we both just decided we wanted to date because we didn't wanna stop talking if one of us dated someone lmao.
and that's how he and i got together, we have been "dating" since september but since we have NOT met in person he and i both decided not to make it official but everyone knwos we are bf/gf including my fam. i know him through a friend of mine who went to hs with him, and i have met that person irl even though i originally know him online. my brother is also friends with both of them (bf is younger than me, is my bro's age).
anyway
covid restrictions are lessening and my bro is allowed to see his gf, so my parents are basically saying that my bf can come down next month (lives 5 hrs north of me, california is massive). i am very very very very excited
but im also incredibly anxious about it. it's not like oh what if he doesn't like me, it's more just like my entire future is in front of me. like if he and i get along, we have such a good foundation that we could end up together forever. and don't say gala ur rushing it blah blah blah because yeah i know it sounds crazy but he and i are pretty serious about each other so it's like i'm looking at this from the lens that this could be my person. but also what if it doesn't work out! i guess u jusst move on but dang. i was telling him that being just online is very comforting because it's like ... degrees of separation ... but then........u gotta take the step.
im just nervous u guys. dont really need advice just need some reassurance. or just u read it and hope it helped ur bordeom for a little. he's like the best guy ever to me, ive been abused really badly in my past relationships and he's patient and kind and understanding and a great listener, and honestly my best friend. im just really nervous we wont like each other in person despite being the best of friends online.
8
i know we're talking on discord also but man i love you bethanyyyyy
