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I cried all night and I'm thinking about how this year (again) has been so fucked up and I'm legit so tired of it all that I can barely stand it
And no I don't mean this in a suicidal way at all I have no desire to die I'm over that but I'm just so damn exhausted it's fucking with me
I have good stuff in store (I HOPE LOL??) I have my birthday soon I have my 2 new rabbits to take care of and I'm taking care of myself too and I'm in a better place when it comes to my confidence and independence and all that stuff but the lord have made sure to test me
What are commas
Don't know who I am or what to do but at the same time I do know because I'm so more in tune with myself but maybe that's what makes me feel like a stranger to myself
There are missing pieces of my life that I don't think will ever be filled but one learn to handle that and I've been in survival mode for so long so those time I can sit down and feel that ok I can handle this I can handle life I'm just so bewildered by it that I am amble to be the observer and not the participant of my emotional turmoil and chaos
Yet again what are commas I don't wnat to use them I'm not vibing with that rn pardon
I'm full of longing and grief and all that but hewwo OwO I'm just out here existing I don't know what else to do besides it
This made no sense like usual
Conclusion: >:-( this emoticon
I cried all night and I'm thinking about how this year (again) has been so fucked up and I'm legit so tired of it all that I can barely stand it
And no I don't mean this in a suicidal way at all I have no desire to die I'm over that but I'm just so damn exhausted it's fucking with me
I have good stuff in store (I HOPE LOL??) I have my birthday soon I have my 2 new rabbits to take care of and I'm taking care of myself too and I'm in a better place when it comes to my confidence and independence and all that stuff but the lord have made sure to test me
What are commas
Don't know who I am or what to do but at the same time I do know because I'm so more in tune with myself but maybe that's what makes me feel like a stranger to myself
There are missing pieces of my life that I don't think will ever be filled but one learn to handle that and I've been in survival mode for so long so those time I can sit down and feel that ok I can handle this I can handle life I'm just so bewildered by it that I am amble to be the observer and not the participant of my emotional turmoil and chaos
Yet again what are commas I don't wnat to use them I'm not vibing with that rn pardon
I'm full of longing and grief and all that but hewwo OwO I'm just out here existing I don't know what else to do besides it
This made no sense like usual
Conclusion: >:-( this emoticon