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SweetLapis wrote:
Why are you sad?

C4TH3DR4L wrote:
I think I need to spend more time outside again. I've had a week now where I've been in dumb habits (not taking care of my mental health)

I'm ok with being alone. I don't mind it at all. Or maybe I do but I never feel like I get to be alone because I'm tormented by my own mind. It's so idiotic. I know I can get out of this emotional prison again. I've done it before it just sucks I arrived here in the first place.

I'm 90% done with the past and I know nothing can happen that will hurt more than things already have, like if life gets worse somehow I know I'll cope I'm so used to it by now

I don't care what happens and that's such a relief. If good things happen then ok neat cool etc but if it continue to rot I don't worry too much about it

I've grown so much thicker skin which somehow feels uncomfortable I've been so sensitive my whole life it almost was an identity. But I'm still sensitive just not to the extremes I used to. I think I have a good heart. Or maybe I don't. I never wanted things to be like this at least

SweetLapis wrote:
You should give it a try then, being outside tends to relieve us of what stresses us in our personal lives..
I'm sorry about your relapse, and hope you overcome it. Don't be too hard on yourself though, like sometimes we just can't be on top of everything. There's going to be ups and downs. At least you know you gotta work on yourself some people tend to be in denial of that, and it's good you've grown thicker skin from your experiences. Having that makes it easier for you to cope but also to come with conclusions on how your going solve/ approach issues in your life. Try not to feel so uncomfortable about that cause that's literally a good thing to possess. Over all, I think you got this. Hope you feel better soon.

C4TH3DR4L wrote:
Thank you, really needed this
Also there is this white cat in the neighbourhood here and for some odd reason I always meet her/him when I do my emo walks and I like to think it's a sign that things will get better loool

SweetLapis wrote:

Aw, hopefully it a good sign. Speaking of cats, it's caturday.

Escobar wrote:
As someone who's struggling with mental health as well, I can only encourage you to focus on your own needs for now. 
I myself go outside every single day, sometimes for long other times only for a short period of time. Relapsing is just a part of it, it'll happen - and you'll eventually learn which tools to use to overcome it. 
Try do do stuff you truly enjoy, give yourself space and time to rest and recover from this and take it as a lesson on how to cope in the future.


Take good care of yourself - and don't be so cruel to yourself (even though it often is easier said than done)

Loads of hugs your way. 

- And yes, as silly as it sounds I get that with the cat I saw you mention. On one of my routes there's always a friendly little one sitting on a bench that always wants to cuddle and chat. Animals are a great stress relief.