Kit wrote:
is like. "oh do something nice for your mom by telling her 5 things you're looking forward to in the next 6 months" and its like..........
1. there's nothing happening in the next 6 months! there is no future! yes i will probably graduate but am i looking forward to it ? nO! yes i may move back home but am i looking forward to it? NO!!!! and just bc you're relentlessly excited doesn't mean i am, and i'm not lying or being facetious when i say what excites you is terrifying form e
2. the amount of emotional effort i've put in the past 5 years to make sure that i keep the severity of my unhappiness from my mom, express it carefully so as not to upset her, and keep my negative emotions completely secret from everyone around me including and especially my mom, is insane! i cannot do anymore!
3. just because your preferred method of family interaction is lying, suppressing your own feelings and being relentlessly positive because any Bad Emotion was considered selfpitying or wallowing or being lazy or selfish doesnt mean that it's healthy!
4. like idk how to explain to u that i'm severely mentally ill and the suggestion of "simply stop sharing bad feelings and only share good ones" is a one way ticket to self-isolation, self-harm, resentment, and other worse attention-seeking behaviors without you rolling your eyes at me
is like. "oh do something nice for your mom by telling her 5 things you're looking forward to in the next 6 months" and its like..........
1. there's nothing happening in the next 6 months! there is no future! yes i will probably graduate but am i looking forward to it ? nO! yes i may move back home but am i looking forward to it? NO!!!! and just bc you're relentlessly excited doesn't mean i am, and i'm not lying or being facetious when i say what excites you is terrifying form e
2. the amount of emotional effort i've put in the past 5 years to make sure that i keep the severity of my unhappiness from my mom, express it carefully so as not to upset her, and keep my negative emotions completely secret from everyone around me including and especially my mom, is insane! i cannot do anymore!
3. just because your preferred method of family interaction is lying, suppressing your own feelings and being relentlessly positive because any Bad Emotion was considered selfpitying or wallowing or being lazy or selfish doesnt mean that it's healthy!
4. like idk how to explain to u that i'm severely mentally ill and the suggestion of "simply stop sharing bad feelings and only share good ones" is a one way ticket to self-isolation, self-harm, resentment, and other worse attention-seeking behaviors without you rolling your eyes at me