cobain wrote:
i didnt take pain meds before bed last night either (cuz i had the kind u can only take twice a day n i wanted to wait until the morning before work just to not mess with the time or whatev. shhh im very careful w meds its silly). couldnt sleep which is GREAT before a 12 hour shift. after a few hours i got fed up n took it anyways, fuck it u know. before that i honestly imagined how good and relieving it would feel to cut it out myself but then it grosses me out so extremely much that it leaves a hole iusdgkjlfgj,