Postproduction wrote:
YEP
I suck at putting things into words, but this past year I've been feeling lack of stuff that's educational and stimulating for my brain
I've gotten into this evil circle of starting to watch a video that I've don't really have much interest in actually watching, and then I go to the recommended list just to click a new video, watch a few seconds and then I choose another one, and suddenly three hours have past and I've seen so much shit content for no reason what so ever
And then I just feel empty
I start to rethink every decision I've done in my life that has gotten me to this point
I compare myself to every other person my age, that studies hard, has a routine, works out, have friends and do stuff to grow as a human being while I'm stuck in the same pattern I've been in since high school
I hate myself for it, I feel so stupid, and my life feels so miserable and meaningless
Then I go back into youtube and do it all over again
I need some books or something