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I want to just rant as usual but not angry
Because I've become a lot better with this whole grounding thing which I'm proud of. I have a lot of supressed anger and a big sense of unjust, a lot due to fear of speaking up. And I've been very harsh on myself for that, asking myself why I'm so ''weak'' despite trying my best even if it wasn't good enough. I've always been an advocate for being understanding and peaceful etc but it tortures me with all that bottled up feelings and then it burst. I haven't had a way to properly express myself because I've been too scared and also because I haven't had the emotional support system I needed growing up teaching me that stuff. But I feel so much more at peace once I get to ground myself and it's never been like that before. My brain is so much more clear 99% of the time and I'm becoming the person I've been underneath all the bad experiences.
I'm no longer scared that I'll explode and I do get angry and such still, and I'm not gonna say that everyone should forgive everything and never feel negative emotions, but the more I think about it the stronger I feel about the whole be kind and compassionate with people. I always have but theory and practise didn't match up for me that well
Maybe it doesn't seem like it all the time regarding the anger but how I express myself on this site doesn't reflect everything I am as a person
lol bye
I want to just rant as usual but not angry
Because I've become a lot better with this whole grounding thing which I'm proud of. I have a lot of supressed anger and a big sense of unjust, a lot due to fear of speaking up. And I've been very harsh on myself for that, asking myself why I'm so ''weak'' despite trying my best even if it wasn't good enough. I've always been an advocate for being understanding and peaceful etc but it tortures me with all that bottled up feelings and then it burst. I haven't had a way to properly express myself because I've been too scared and also because I haven't had the emotional support system I needed growing up teaching me that stuff. But I feel so much more at peace once I get to ground myself and it's never been like that before. My brain is so much more clear 99% of the time and I'm becoming the person I've been underneath all the bad experiences.
I'm no longer scared that I'll explode and I do get angry and such still, and I'm not gonna say that everyone should forgive everything and never feel negative emotions, but the more I think about it the stronger I feel about the whole be kind and compassionate with people. I always have but theory and practise didn't match up for me that well
Maybe it doesn't seem like it all the time regarding the anger but how I express myself on this site doesn't reflect everything I am as a person
lol bye