Pavlov wrote: like feelings of emptiness or hopelessness used to come and go but id always come back a week or a few days later and i was able to feel something again, but now its like i woke up one day without my creativity, and ability to feel positive feelings, for it never to come back
Pavlov wrote: when i was younger i would feel so strongly about everything like the music i listened to, nature, smells, and now i can just remember how it felt, like some color blind person trying to imagine a color he cant even see
yea but it doesnt fuckin stop its like my basic mood is competely numbed its not just a period of depression y kno, i used to have short periods of depression and they felt different than this, like similar but still different, ive barely felt any levels of joy in forever i dont even remember when was the last time i actually felt somewhat content