HARMA wrote:
...birthday party tomorrow (today since it's like 2am)
i went to take a corona test today because i saw a friend quickly a couple days ago and she tested positive. but i just noticed, at 2am, that i got a text at 9.50pm saying my result was negative
my mum's having her 50th birthday party and i was both looking forward to go and really anxious because i haven't seen my sister in like 2 years and she's only in the country for a few more days and there are other relatives i'd love to catch up with too. but approximately a week ago i was sexually abused and it's really hard to deal with and today felt like the first time in AGES i had so so much fun and like things stayed in a friendly zone and everybody left home at a reasonable hour. the hours and minutes have been very long this week. i feel like i'm starting to be able to set boundaries again, but it's really exhausting and i don't know if i have it in me to go, but if i don't i'll feel guilty?? the things are so separate but i can't just ignore either?????
...birthday party tomorrow (today since it's like 2am)
i went to take a corona test today because i saw a friend quickly a couple days ago and she tested positive. but i just noticed, at 2am, that i got a text at 9.50pm saying my result was negative
my mum's having her 50th birthday party and i was both looking forward to go and really anxious because i haven't seen my sister in like 2 years and she's only in the country for a few more days and there are other relatives i'd love to catch up with too. but approximately a week ago i was sexually abused and it's really hard to deal with and today felt like the first time in AGES i had so so much fun and like things stayed in a friendly zone and everybody left home at a reasonable hour. the hours and minutes have been very long this week. i feel like i'm starting to be able to set boundaries again, but it's really exhausting and i don't know if i have it in me to go, but if i don't i'll feel guilty?? the things are so separate but i can't just ignore either?????