Pavlov wrote: terrifying, it literally feels like im living the same day over and over and over and over again, im gonna have to start writing things down to actually make any progress mentally
Pavlov wrote: like my brain is capable enough when it comes to understanding certain things, but that becomes useless when u literally have no knowledge you can use in your brain its so fucking frustrating
Pavlov wrote: u people have no idea how much dread all of this is causing me im actually fucking suffering
how am i even supposed to make peace with potential gradual mental decline as a person who has internalized everything since they were a child i literally depend on my brain functioning
Pavlov wrote: my life just consists of complaining online now sigh i need to find a way out of this repetitive behaviour soon before i completely loose it