kagura wrote:
my last break up was seriously the hardest shit i've ever gone through so.. i basically didn't do anything else than drank wine and smoked cigs for a week and i had to go snowshoe hiking with school right after that
so i was mentally a wreck and my body absolute didn't function normally either. but i decited to go there anyway, because i would get my thoughts to something else and i maybe get ridd of stress smoking
well it was indeed a shcool trip and that means we study there. which in this case means that my teacher put me in charge of orientation. well no problemos that's the one thing i'm good at
but..... the amount of snow. oh my god. snowshoes didn't help at all, like there was snow literally to my armpits and we went there like under 1km per hour. it was physically hard to all of us
this is not my proudest moment, but i was there tired af mentally and physically, in middle of the forest, in charge of leading us and i just broke
i literally started crying like a baby and i just started screaming that i won't do this, i can't keep going anymore i can't metally take this i'll just stay here and die for hypothermia
let's just say we had a long talk with my teacher when we got to our camp and i am not going to be a wilderness guide and i'm never fucking doing winter camping again,,