Pavlov wrote: ok so im doing this slightly prematurely but how do you deal with loss in a healthy way that doesnt make you lose your sense of self or sanity
Pavlov wrote: ive realized that i mustve been intellectualizing things and depriving myself of emotions to not have to deal with loss because my brain is subconscously expecting someone to die or get so sick that theyre no longer there mentally
Pavlov wrote: stupid human brain i wish i was a rock or something so id never have formed attachments to things and experience what it was like to feel. honestly all humans are masochists for even wanting to be alive in the first place
alprazolam wrote: i dealt with something like that kinda recently i guess every1 will go kinda insane for a bit regardless tbh i just distracted myself with trivial things to drown out my feelings so i could process things slowly later in a "better" (aka not-hysteric) state of mind which might've not been the smartest of decisions but here i am today out and about getting over it is a long-ass process just take your time and take care of yourselfÂ
Pavlov wrote: i dont even know what to say anymore i just wish things were different than they are now, i want things to be good and happy, but there is just no option for it, and i dont know what to do to even achieve that anymore
Pavlov wrote: i dont even know what to say anymore i just wish things were different than they are now, i want things to be good and happy, but there is just no option for it, and i dont know what to do to even achieve that anymore
i wish these things couldve waited until i found my own stability in life but no, life does not hesitate to make me suffer
Pavlov wrote: i just cant imagine life without this person, will i even exist anymore, will i even have any purpose anymore, i dont think i will find much purpose to replace it with
Pavlov wrote: im being dramatic because theyre not even dead yet, but people are amazed that theyre still holding on despite the amount of medication they need, also their health is decreasing rapidly, so i really dont know
Pavlov wrote: im being dramatic because theyre not even dead yet, but people are amazed that theyre still holding on despite the amount of medication they need, also their health is decreasing rapidly, so i really dont know
but even if they live for many more years, theyre not the same person as they used to be and they are in a lot of pain and it hurts me to see them like this