MasileinDE wrote:
reason to live? it'd hurt like fucking hell for those I love if I were gone and I want to live in a way to inflict as little pain and harm onto those I love as possible
now, might sound like a red flag, isn't that bad though. there's a bunch of things I enjoy doing and that make me happy or just be glad I'm alive.
it's mostly spending time with family and friends - talking, eating, playing games, sometimes even having discussions. doesn't have to be in person, with most people I only have digital contact.
I kinda want to start getting a job soon (studies took way longer they should've because of multiple bodily ailments)
I enjoy watching my series, cleaning my apartment, learning new recipes, playing games, planning stuff and setting them up in notion (sounds so lame, I'm sorry, I'm just a neat freak). sometimes just going for a walk is really nice. idk, I'm not an "overly happy" person, I'm either stressed, elated or I just am and none of these states is inherently good or bad. I need to be them all at some point and I need variety in them. I guess that's happiness for me?