Random wrote:
I tend to do the same thing, that when I'm not feeling good I push people away. Trying to work on that...also those times I'm usually more rude, so I tell people that I'm going through stuff and I don't want to hurt them for me being the way I am. In past i didn't recognize this and sabotaged a lot of my friendships, now I at least notice it myself.
But I do recommend trying to find someone to talk to, family member, professional or what ever would work for you. Try to get these things out and let someone help you sort out the feelings you are having.
You definitely ain't alone with this, so try to seek some help. c: