bee wrote:
its been a long time hasnt it?
wish i didnt have anxiety, like the past half year its been a lot better and its definitely the meds but now its like it has stopped working and im so anxious over everything again. i leave everyone on read and maybe its really because theyre not what i want, i want friends, i really really miss having friends or just people i feel comfortable around. its so weird i literally dont know how to get friends, i can never get past the anxious part and i give up but i can talk with guys for some reason. i think because ive always felt wanted by guys theyre easier to talk to, i feel better and more confident. because i know im wanted. but im wanted romantically and sexually and never for friendly company. it feels really lonely. i have too often felt unwanted by friends and its probably what is making it so hard for me to find new friends. i always feel like people hate every single thing i do. i just wanna go out on friday and celebrate turning 22 and maybe pretend that i feel alright with that age. and now my brain stopped working
its been a long time hasnt it?
wish i didnt have anxiety, like the past half year its been a lot better and its definitely the meds but now its like it has stopped working and im so anxious over everything again. i leave everyone on read and maybe its really because theyre not what i want, i want friends, i really really miss having friends or just people i feel comfortable around. its so weird i literally dont know how to get friends, i can never get past the anxious part and i give up but i can talk with guys for some reason. i think because ive always felt wanted by guys theyre easier to talk to, i feel better and more confident. because i know im wanted. but im wanted romantically and sexually and never for friendly company. it feels really lonely. i have too often felt unwanted by friends and its probably what is making it so hard for me to find new friends. i always feel like people hate every single thing i do. i just wanna go out on friday and celebrate turning 22 and maybe pretend that i feel alright with that age. and now my brain stopped working